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Another Broken Girl Nov 9, 06 @ 8:58pm
Another Broken Butterfly, wingless and unfree as it falls onto my lap...i burried it under a tree. why do the things so beautiful in life seem to have faded away. to leave, to die, to make me feel this way... as angels cry and demons all hide in this enchanting universe this broken dream and everlasting scream don't really even hurt... as she dies and starts to rot, this is nature is it not? then why do we cry when our loved ones die even tho they stay in our thoughts. another broken child to witness parents fighting, another broken life hidden and still hiding...theres only so many places u can cry untill theres no place left other than the sky, now u can't get that high to cry in the sky so its better for all of us if u jus don't try....Another broken girl....lost in this world, she dosn't need the trill of this last snow hill. but that girl's gonna make her way down slowley, cuz she dosn't need anyone she's used to being lonely... crying



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heart I think I'm inlove...yea Love, and No i don't think this ones gonna rhyme, this is jus an ordinary blog, sumthing outta my thoughts, since i need journal therapy, yea i kno lame huh, well its an awesome realeife from when i have no1 to talk to... u c, my mom..well she hates the fact that i'm growing up and she can't stand it when i say i think i'm inlove

K so this Is the story .....i'v had a crush on this guy..Billy, yes his name is Billy...so yea liked this guy for a while Now, he gose to my skool and i met...okie saw him on the bus, i thought he was hot of course thats my first reaction to most guys...so then he called to me and asked me to come near....unfortunatley he wasnt calling me... he was calling the lil blond behind me. who of course i believed was his gf... so he looked so sweet jus leaning over her, since he's pretty tall like, 5'9'' 6' to beileve...he was jus soo cute that i told my friend next to me, "aww isn't that cute, young love" of course he and she herd me...tho i was jealous...but really i never get like that when i see a guy for the first time... i really don't so that suprised me....as they got off the buss at their stop which was my stop too, i tapped him on the shoulder in a joking manner "don't forget to use protection" as he and she crossed the street... i went home and felt completely upset...like i'v lost every ounce of my being to him in that stupid Buss.....

Next couple of weeks i made it my duty to befriend him and see if he would dump his gf for me....now i'd say hi to him everyday and hugg him too, untill one day....i found out from his friends and mine, that he never had a gf and that he was single...now from that moment, i saw him hugged him and told him wat i herd off the grape vine, as he played it cool withn his sarcastic manner, i played around asking if he could put me on the top of his list to be his gf...tho he had no list...i got to kno him for 3 more days taking the buss home with him and being the girl that was under him as he spoke to me...ME of all others. now on the 4th day, i found out that it was the night of the dance, so i pleaded for him to come as of course he played cool and said sure he's come....i got dreesed in my skirt and high black sox and a really cute tshirt with a cross, skullz and roses....when i arrived at the skool with my friend kristy there he was with the girl from the bus which i found out was his friend...all cute and sk8r dressed....i smiled and said he looked hot as he said the same to me, Billy, Alexa, Kristy and I made jokes and fun while waiting for the skools doors to open...we enterd inside, got searched tagged payed for and enterd in, i was called by sum frineds to take carte of a wasted friend for a lil bit as Billy waited outside for us girls...when that was over one of my other friends -wasted as well- spotted him and started to flirt and push up against him...and kiss him.....i told her to back off, and there she left, i went bac to care for kathrin the first wasted friend as kristy showed Billy the dance...Nina the second wasted friend spotted him again while i was busy....she said she needed to talk to him pulled him away from kristy and Made out with him....i came into the dance and spotted this...i was heart broken and gut wrenched.....but i quicky said forget it, she's drunk and he's never delt with a drunk befor so i lett it go.....he came to me apoligiseing and i secured him that its was all fine...

so i grabbed him and started grinding cuz thats my way of letting a guy kno i'm into them...we spent the whole time with eachother, never did i leave his side.... and then Alexa his friend...told him to jus kiss me already since it was noted that he liked me back and also wanted to date me.....he suprised me with a slow and sensual kiss that made my heart jus stop......i was completley breathless due to the fact he was an amazing kisser....we made out about 4 more times ad the dance finally ended.... and outside, he asked me to be his gf and of course i said yes him and i hung out with kristy till she got her ride as me and him took the buss home accompanied by a baked friend of mine...Alinka, she asked and said the dumbest things...but then we finally reached the buss stop where we were planing on taking home ditching Alinka...me and him made out while she yelled at her mom on her cell....2 busses past but finally we jus chose to walk to his stop on my street...i wated there with him..talking and touching him...his face was smooth and i was jus memorized by his presence.....we kissed and his buss arrived...and i kissed him goodnight, only to see him the next day as planned...which became a day where me and him realized we really liked eachother...

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Happy B-day to me!
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Love
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Nya~
I LOVE BEING AN ANIME CHARECTER!




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This Feeling...
As idiotic as is sounds i wanna get lost and never be found...its raining outside and i'm inside the school. my teacher let me leave class cuz she's F*cking Kool, i feel really strange, sad and mispleased, i can't seem to think or find a way to eez.....my warry mind is my fault at this.....its that i don't have a love, a boi to kiss... i don't jus want an ordinary thing, i wanna feel so good that i'd jus run outside and sing, louder and louder till sumbody said, "Yea we Kno you love him now plz jus go to bed!" sorrie i'd whisper for all that i kno is i'm happy, yes, happy that he loves me so.
but if it were all an amazing dream i'd wake up and scream "Holy F*ck!"
why is it me who can't ever have the good, bad is all i ever get and snow that freezes wood...who am, i what am i, what will i do with my life, as i look apon the kitchen counter and see that pretty knife.....that is the end the end of me...to bleed and bleed and make a Red Sea!......this is how it is, to be forever missed, but thats ok to kno, cuz i'v never felt all loved like so....thats the end the story of me, that strange lil girl who had many thoughts and dreams...



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that imaginary boi
I'm lost and Hopless and can't seem to find, myself in a box coverd by time.....as it rushes to my death and awakens my soul, i try to hold tight but yet i let go....as i fall from this hight 13 stories above.....i look at the sky and throw away my last love....i won't ever find him, and if i ever do, i kno he won't love me...i kno that one thing's tru.....i'm strange and hyper, and don't make any scense...i'm depressed and Lonely and really intense...

i'm falling and falling but i don't feel the ground...have i hit it already? i don't wanna turn around.......in my head i see him...that dream i hold too tightly to let go...that hero that angel that boi i love so....maybe i shud die, so i can be with him forever. in a forever lasting dream me and him together... he calls me from inside my mind and the pulse of my chest....a call on the phone, a letter at best...why do i love him? he dosn't exsist....and if he did....i wouldn't be writing this.....jus to hold him, to touch his skin,to brush his hair, to feel his heart beat within him...

plz would u love me i'd beg and beg and if he said no...i'd put my life to an end... I love him and Love him, he knos this its tru, for as i write this Poem he see's my every move....he's that dream boi, every girl has, that childish love that lasts and lasts, even with another, a real live boi or other, u still love that dream one, that childish joy that made up, beautiful one, that sweet emo boi....i wanna be held in his warm arms, i wanna find him on earth and not in the stars... i want that love that feeling inside...thats he's not jus a dream......he's really ALIVE.....




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