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I forgot to write again! I just don't feel like I have a whole lot to say because I've been consulting in my other half. I learned a lot about him last night. He opened up and talked to me about his life before me and leading up to me - but only the parts involving the last few years. Not his actual childhood or anything like that. We walked to the store as well. I really enjoy how well we talk and communicate with one anoter. That's really nice.

I was literally too tired to write yesterday so I sort of half-a** failed. Oh well, at least I am bothering today. Work was alright last night. I started out very exhausted, but I ended up taking a little pick me up called caffeine and it pushed me through. But now I am ******** crashing. I'm conflicted because there is a particular individual that says he hates me. Because I know he wants to, but I can tell by the way he approaches me and looks at me (which is pretty frequent) that he can't do it and he wants to find a reason to associate with and talk to me. Even over the most stupid things, Hopefully he'll get over his "I WANT TO HATE YOU" s**t soon and just act normal. He's a really good guy. I'll make him hug it out if he doesn't stop. I think he needs it. I think maybe deep down inside he is hurting for some reason and nobody else is picking up on that so he lashes out and pretends to be angry instead. But I see rejection and upset. Moving on...I'm actually talking to Kim. It's going well. And I pretty much full out confronted her about Kenneth and then told her I no longer see her as a threat. That I am fully aware of her infatuation with him, but that we have a bond that cannot be broken without many repercussions . Ha. My inner demon has taken control of the conversation. Maybe that's why it's so easy. Or should I say, his inner demon? Who knows. But I took a sleep aid and I really do need to lay down. Anyway...that's it for now I suppose.