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>: i feel ill, and i don't feel good.
 -Blured Influence- · Wed Oct 03, 2007 @ 03:11am · 2 Comments |
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SURVEY TIME?? OMGGAAAHHHH |
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001. Real name → alyssa
002. Nickname → Ally, alyssa, blured, blink, cocoya, chapel
003. Status → SINGLE AND RONRY.
004. Zodiac sign → taurus
005. Male or female → I HAS A v****a HURR HURR HURR
006. Elementary → My dear Watson?
007. Middle School → silver trail.
008. Highschool → somerset academy and everglades.
009. Any talents → FAP FAP FAP.
010. Hair color → bright a** red highlights with brown hair
011. Long or short → sorta... medium?
012. Favorite band → LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL CHRIST +1 just kidding XD
013. Favorite color → GREEN, LIKE THE COLOUR OF MY MONEY, ********
014. Do you hate anyone → p***s
015. Are you health freak → PASS ME THE LARD HURR HURR HURR
016. Height → 5'2''
017. Do you have a crush on someone → LOL I GUESS
018. Favorite ice cream → BUTTER PECAN
019. Piercings→ EARS AND p***s
020. Tattoos → nien
021. Righty or lefty → right handed
022. Favorite childhood story → little red riding hood raped by irony.
FIRSTS :
023. First piercing → i was a few months old, I'M ******** HARDCORE
024. First best friend → i has none *SLITS WRISTS*
025. First award > like i remember? it was from a poetry contest
026. First sport you joined → NONE, I'M TOO AMERICAN FOR THAT s**t
027. First pet → my iguana, willie (stfu)
028. First big vacation → the trip through my mom's vagoo. BEST.RIDE.EVER.
029. First concert → jimmy eat world. A.K.A: J.E.W
030. First crush → first crush? i don't know. but i do know i had a crush on Gui from somerset. afterwards i told him and we just laughed. he kept asking what i saw in him. to this day, i still say i DON'T know.
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating → RELIGION
050. Drinking → CHEESE
051. Wanting → PORN
052. I'm about to → FART
053. Listening to → FOR THE GIRL-- BY THE FRATELLIS.. MAKE ME STOP.
055. Waiting for → COLLEGE
056. Needing → SEXY TIME
057. Watching → p***s
YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids? → ....what?
059. Want to get married? → only if he's got the body carved by angels
060. Careers in mind → i want to be the pope, WATCH OUT KIDS.
061. At what age are you going to retire → never, at this rate, it's not going to happen.
FAMILY:
062. Parents divorced → NO
063. Any siblings → yes.
064. What are their names → victor and hector (SO ******** SPANISH)
065. Closer to mom or dad → MUMMY
066. Family pets → a poodle
067. Would you take a bullet for a family member → ******** NO. nor will i take a bullet for ANYONE. if i say yes, I LIED TO MAKE MYSELF LOOK AWSOME
068. Do you have favorites → NO
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY? :
068. Lips or eyes → EYES
069. Hugs or kisses → hugs
070. Shorter or taller → like a GIRAFFE
071. Smile or hair → smile
072. Romantic or spontaneous → ROMANCE ME RAW
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → if you have a nice stomache then you have nice arms. STFU.
074. Sensitive or loud → hmmm, do i want an emo or do i want an hispanic?
075. Hook-up or relationship → RE-LATION-s**t
076. Cute or hot → HOT, then i'll tak pictures of him when he sleeps and sell them to people
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → HOW ABOUT SMART? ...AND ASAIN? .... AND JUST THE MOST AMAZING MAN EVER.
HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger → yes
079. Drank bubbles → DA ******** U ON, CRACKA?
080. Lost glasses/contacts → in the ocean
081. Ran away from home → NO
082. Done drugs → NO WAI
083. Passed out from drinking → WHATTTTTTTTTTTT?
084. Broken someone's heart → ONCE, CAUSE I'M ******** BADASS
085. Been arrested → no
086. Had your heart broken → TITS OR GTFO
087. Cried when someone died → TEARS OF SADNESS
088. Fallen out of a tree → I'M NO MONKEY
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → A
090. Miracles → THING
091. Love at first sight → CALLED
092. Heaven → LOVE?
093. Santa clause → DUNNNNN
094. Sex on the first date→ DUNNNNNNN
095. Kiss on the first date → DUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
096. The tooth fairy → I LOVE CHER'S SONG XD
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now→ not really
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life→ NO
099. Do you believe in God→ ..WHO?
100. Post as 100 truths- .... NO, I WON'T. ********.
-Blured Influence- · Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 05:14pm · 1 Comments |
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posting a new journal for gold, i'll post later if this seems like a waste (i doubt it).
-Blured Influence- · Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 09:05pm · 0 Comments |
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"Who will cry for the little boy, lost and all alone?
Who will cry for the little boy, abandoned without his own?
Who will cry for the little boy? He cried himself to sleep.
Who will cry for the little boy? He never had for keeps.
Who will cry for the little boy? He walked the burning sand.
Who will cry for the little boy? The boy inside the man.
Who will cry for the little boy? Who knows well hurt and pain.
Who will cry for the little boy? He died and died again.
Who will cry for the little boy? A good boy he tried to be.
Who will cry for the little boy, who cries inside of me?"
i loved the poem in this movie.. it made me tear up.
-Blured Influence- · Sat Jan 27, 2007 @ 05:06am · 2 Comments |
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Aozora no shita de/under the blue sky. |
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it's been such a long while since i posted anything in my journallll SOOO, i decided to come here and change my avatar and possibly write for a little bit.
everything in life still seems confusing and just yesterday, feeling were exchanged between me and my friend. we are both confused about how we're supposed to feel now that everything is in the open. i don't know how to react to that, you know? i mean, it's just way too ealry to really get too involved with certain matters.
other then having a relationship that's closer then anyone else i know, i am extremly tired still. don't worry, i've been getting sleep. it's just that i need to just stop going to be so late just because of that one person.. school always tests our friendship.
anywayssssssssss, other then that.. there isn't much to say except i've been drawing more and i've improved. XD i'm actually sorta pleased with it.
TIP TAPS TIP TAP TIPS TAPSSSSSSSS, I'M OFF.
-Blured Influence- · Mon Jan 15, 2007 @ 08:59pm · 0 Comments |
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the future freaks me out. |
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"The Future Freaks Me Out"
I’m on fire and now I think I’m ready to bust a move
Check it out I’m rocking steady
Go!
Betty won’t stop listening to modern rock
How she hates to be alone
I try to compensate her lack of love with coffee cake
Ice cream and a bottle of ten dollar wine she says hey
I rock the Haro sport
I rock the cow girl blues
I rock too fast for love I’m footloose in my Velcro shoes
What’s up with Will and Grace?
I don’t get drum and bass
The future freaks me out
I’m on fire and now I think I'm ready to bust a move
Check it out I’m rocking steady
To the beat in my head
It goes oh, oh-oh-oh
I know that she’s the only one
I’d rather waste our time together
Yeah, ‘cause we can get down
Betty can’t quit carving question marks in my wrist
How come we’re so alone
We waste away the days with nicotine and television samples
From an era we hate to admit we embrace
We fail to represent
We fail to be content
We fail at everything we ever even try to attempt
And so the story goes
As only Betty knows
It’s time to take control
(Get Down)
I’m on fire and now I think I'm ready to bust a move
Check it out I’m rocking steady
To the beat in my head
It goes oh, oh-oh-oh
I know that she’s the only one
I’d rather waste my time with her
Betty, I need you
I miss you
I’m so alone without you
To call up on the weekends with my cellular phone
Betty it’s so hard to relate
To the whole human race
I don’t know where to begin
I don’t know where to begin
If we can both find a way
To do the things that we say
We might not sit in our rooms
And drink our daydreams away
Betty, I’m a dreamer
I’m not a vicious schemer
Oh Betty won’t you.. ah ******** it
I’m on fire and now I think I'm ready to bust a move
Check it out I’m rocking steady
To the beat in my head
It goes oh, oh-oh-oh
I know that she’s the only one
I’d rather waste our time together
Yeah, ‘cause we can get down
-Blured Influence- · Sun Nov 12, 2006 @ 07:58pm · 1 Comments |
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[Tom]
The building turned it's back ignored my call,
The concrete looks too thin to break my fall,
The sunset stretched across this nighttime scene,
I counted people as I neared the street below,
Whoa-oa-oa
Below
Whoa-oa-oa
[Mark]
I saw it all I saw it all go down,
The shadow grew as he approached the ground,
The sunset stretched across this nighttime scene,
They turned away as he came near the street below,
Whoa-oa-oa
Below
Whoa-oa-oa
Below
Whoa-oa-oa
[Tom]
Lets forget this all move on
[Mark]
Lets forget this all move on
[Tom]
Lets forget this all move on
[Mark]
Lets forget this all move on
[Tom]
Lets forget this all move on
[Mark]
Lets forget this all move on
-Blured Influence- · Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 01:25am · 1 Comments |
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i spoke to my friend today and he seems the same as always. there are always things so good and horrible in our friendship and it's driving me nuts.
i mean, i am thinking about alot of things like me getting off the internet completly or if something happens to him, how in hell would i know? and it's really sad how i care so much but i'm not supposed to since it is a pen pal and all but i just don't want to get hurt or hurt anyone in the process.
i've known him for 3 years longer than i ever should have, and he knows me better then all the firends i have. he knows when i lie just by the way i type, he's okay with my crazy obsession with yaoi, loves the way i draw, compliments me about my looks and charm but i just don't want to mess it up. falling in "love" is strictly out of the question since we're too far apart and it's worthless attempts to rid my mind off of this one boy i still like. truth is, i forgot how he sounds like now.
here i am, still thinking about this one boy who doesn't even care about me. i forgot most of his looks and his pitch of voice but i can remember the font colour he types in. turquois and grey. we never had much in common but i still hope that one day i would bump into him and have the time of my life with just him.
then i have john. the guy hates the fact that i obsessed over the guy i liked for 3 years as well. john is very envious that i used to spend all my time crying and bitching due to the fact at how the world spins. how can i love someone i don't know?
you can't.
so why is it that john knows me so well but i don't know anything about him? it's like a mystery in my eyes and i want to know more but it just makes me sad because i know i'm not his only pen pal or friend who he has feelings for. i have a feeling we will never meet but i still pray even though we are discussing it to this day.
now even as i talk to him, our conversations have run out of it's love and charm and it's like we're starting over again. we're just vague and we never say anything anymore like "i love you" or something stupid along those lines.
haha, i remember the first time he told me he "loved" me. i went silent in shock because it wasn't something casual like i say to some people in a joking matter, it was for real. i remember telling him "i'm so sorry, i just can't say the same to you in that way. i love you but not that way." i felt so horrible, like i crushed him and made it seem even more obvious that the only thing i wanted was michael, a kid who never liked me back.
i feel so stupid. i feel just so ******** stupid.
i hope to god that i don't lose john. it's like what i told him, "he's my angel". there's no way a pen pal like him can just be a random person. it's almost destiny..
a destiny i can never reach.
-Blured Influence- · Sat Nov 04, 2006 @ 02:41am · 1 Comments |
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