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I remember those old days
______Of tearing out each other’s hearts
____________Of clawing at each other’s minds
__________________Of screaming and crying and bruises
________________________And back then I wanted nothing more
______________________________Then to be far, far away from you
I remember when we decided
______That time apart was for the better
____________That we would never do this again
__________________That forgetting was our best option
________________________And that watching you walk away
______________________________Was the hardest thing to ever do
I remember just last night
______When you came to me, pleading
____________When years passed and I was different
__________________When I saw how beautiful you’ve been
________________________And being able to touch your olive skin
______________________________Felt like a blessing I never deserved
I remember everything now
______How much it hurts to be around you
____________How I know that you’ll never return
__________________How irredeemable my mistakes are
________________________And imaging another name on your lips
______________________________Will forever grasp onto what I have lost
 wayfinding · Thu Aug 27, 2015 @ 04:02pm · 0 Comments |
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i mean, idk??? i just found out our Saturday spent working was a waste of time because everything we did basically cost less than what it took do make it (overtime pay for 10+ people, so much wasted material like expensive automotive tape, heat and electricity, physical strength, ect.) and it’s basically the equivalent of (as explained to newt) being comissioned to write a 10+ chapter fic with 1000+ words each, smut in each, of your biggest NOTP, spending a full month (8 hours EVERY day) on it, and getting paid 10 bucks total for everything. what’s most irritating is that this is a job we’ve never done before, stupid daddy’s boy larry (the boss’ son, second in command, wah wah wah) never consulted us about this s**t, and honestly it was just a nightmare
you know about the car accident, and since then mom’s been really shitty about me driving even though i didnt make ANY mistakes, it was out of my hands (i ******** slid on water???), so like when we got a rental dad asked if we should put me as a driver and mom was like super snobby word for word “mmmmm im thinking not” and when we were working saturday i had to borrow the car to go ACROSS THE STREET for lunch (i’d’ve walked but then had, like, 5 minutes to eat) and she tells me “dont get in an accident” which pissed me off like wtf??? and then later that day after work i asked dad if i could borrow the car to go not even a mile away to grab dinner for newt and i and all she says is “i dont like how often you borrow the car” so i had enough of it and stormed up to her like “look, if you blame me for the accident, you can tell me” and she gave this defense like “i dont blame you!! but we cant risk ur dad’s car!! this is our lifestyle!!” and i was ******** furious because you could just tell she blamed me and i stormed out to walk what would have been a 3-5 minute drive to McDonalds and she never even asked if i was okay per usual, dad was the one who texted me, like, 10 minutes into a heavy rain storm “where are you are you safe?” and tbh i was so pissed that i didnt wanna answer so i waited until the storm let up to do so and walk back
so yeah that was just saturday and i JUST found out the price of the job today and its literally nothing
plus there was this one b***h, oooooooooh this ******** c**t, newt met her at the mall and since newt and i are poly they’re allowed to flirt with other people (idk if i am but w/e) and have another relationship as long as everyone loves everyone, ye??? but anyway, so this girl, desi, was basically being sexually harassed by a “friend” of hers and desi is like 20 and her friend is 16, like fresh 16, and only invited her over to stay so desi would sleep with her and so newt and i invited her over to our house instead so she could escape that bs and then saturday came and WHILE AS I WAS AT ******** WORK she did the same s**t to newt, she ******** harassed them and guilt tripped them to try and make them kiss her and s**t and it was ******** gross i was glad that someone picked her up before i came home otherwise b***h woulda had a black eye like you can ******** flirt with newt all you want but when my datemate starts texting me about how uncomfortable they are with someone’s actions after newt ******** explained the boundaries and s**t??? like??? newt explained to desi that they were in a relationship with me and we’re poly and open to other people as long as it’s all mutual and desi was like “you should kiss me” but newt and i have agreed that we have to have consent from the other for that so they told her “i have to ask jas” AND THIS ******** b***h TELLS THEM “its called keeping a secret” and this c**t just kept on suggesting this s**t and that i probably dont love newt because i dont text when im at work but she does uh ******** sorry my boss is my mother and she’ll kick my a** if im caught texting and work and just desi treated newt like all they were good for was physical s**t and just
our saturday was awful as ******** and last week was just ad rag in general since the car accident and its just dragging out to this week so far and its only monday
okay im sorry that was a lot but s**t has been left and right
wayfinding · Mon Aug 24, 2015 @ 06:30pm · 0 Comments |
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