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Yeah, it's sad, I've been gone from Gaia for sometime, not sure what's wrong with me. I have my friends here, that I love very much Suko, Arch, Missy, Ray >.>, Biri, my Guildies...etc. Yeah. .__. Today for complete casualitie I went on Gaia, and Oh~! Look, only 2 more months Till my Gaiaversary, but the months I've been gone, have made made this year quite...well...w/e <.<;' I've had a serie of events, alot of them happy, aswell sad, and even depressing. I must admit, I love being around here, but time passes, things were goin really good actually, but someone from my past showed...quite funny event actually. ^^;' And I had another thing goin on at the time. But then Gaia Flyff Gaia Flyff Flyff Gaia Flyf flyff flyff. Yeah it took over. I kept convincing myself I'd come back, and I knew I would, simply too many people here, that are in someway, -dosen't matter for long I leave-, important to me. I actually, had a problem like this with a good friend, from Flyff actually, Summer Vacations Ended, no more free time. She couldn't get online, time betrayed. And I get to find out about this Convo she has with my other good friend Steph. She was thinking that I didn't care about her...etc. I'll post the e-mail I sended her later. Anyways, back to my points, I'm losing control. ._.
Shionruk · Sat Oct 14, 2006 @ 08:06am · 0 Comments |
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....I just tought about what I tried. I saw the pictures.... I just broke... Thinking about it made me burst into tears, it made me curl up on my chair, whit my hands holding tightly the top of my headphones, cluthing it, hidding my face in my knees. I couldn't stop crying, muttering stuff, my mistakes, the regret... I cried, like I haven't in such time, I tried to open it again...whit my nails I scratched on it so hard and fast I almost did, slightly bleeding... I'm very sorry...forgive my weakness The toughts I had made me cry more... Whit the music turned on so loud I couldn't hear myself.... It burns it really does.... I cant' stop the tears... I'm caling down but it burns it really does it hurts Can't stop shaking....
Note: Nesqui...I thank you. I've feel so much better when I'm whit you, please forgive my weakness.
Shionruk · Fri Jul 14, 2006 @ 04:27am · 2 Comments |
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Here I'll save links of all kinds
Link to my ART[Flower.butterly]: http://artpad.art.com/?j2670nqv92c
Shionruk · Mon Jul 10, 2006 @ 05:33am · 0 Comments |
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~ I do have some fake cat ears IRL. ~ I never go out whitout my cross or my messenger bag...the only diffirence is that mine is red and the other one is black. ~ The watch is my Pink Baby-G. ~ I only have one pair of jeans that aren't ripped from somewhere. xD ~ My favorite converse are pink but mine have skull shoelaces. ~ I couldn't find any skul, star or dice earing so I got ones that look like some old ones I have. ~ I <3 using one shirt above another one. ~ My cat is black XD ~ I do have curly almost-black hair, but I have straight bangs covering my eyes ['emo' style] ~ My eyes are green. ~ I have a skull hair clip x3 ~ I do have a bandaid on my face right now T.T
Shionruk · Mon Jun 26, 2006 @ 08:42pm · 1 Comments |
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Out of luck Out of energy |
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So on Saturday half of my house shut down, there seemed to be a problem whit the breakers. I had to sleep whit no AC!...and it was damn hot that night, I had to be like this for 2 days, I did get some time in my computer but then I had to turn it off, Christine called this guy so he could find the problem, something burned in the obreakers that are outside, no in my house, meaning that it wasn't a problem of ours, we had to call heck knows who to fix it resulting me whit more than 24 hrs away of my computer. D': So Finally I'm back xd
And about my wrist, it stoped bleeding, everything is a bit better after I got to talk to my friend.
Shionruk · Mon Jun 26, 2006 @ 06:06pm · 0 Comments |
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[x] Well like I said, this is like my new Diary
So [If you don't like 'emo' things such as cutting youself don't read my crap.] My latest events
Mishy- -can't eat whiout feeling even more sick and then puking it.
-'s wirst dosen't stop bleeding, she has almost 20 cuts on her left wrist.
- misses Anny.
- is breaking down.
- isn't okay.
- cried herself to sleep the day Anny left.
- knows that it's wrong that she cut herfself so much.
- is tired of everything.
- wants to leave home.
- eyes are gray intead of green.
- wants to cry again.
- has been writing and drawing alot of sad things.
- needs help.
- can't take it anymore.
Shionruk · Sun Jun 25, 2006 @ 11:42pm · 0 Comments |
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Something I shall acomplish someday =] |
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This is like my last quest Items: Solar Headdress (Flare) Fuzzy penguin Slippers Golden Laurels (Sparkle) Angelic Bracelet Romani Glasses Dark Halo (Dark Hold) Black Leather Belt Black Fishnet Stockings Guitar Of Angellus Guitar Of demona [Both back-mounted aka wings]
Shionruk · Sun Jun 18, 2006 @ 08:19am · 0 Comments |
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[x]I guees I'll start using this thing as a real journal, some might notice how my typing SUCKED, back in december ^^;. Well to start it's been quite sometime since I first clicked ww.gaiaonline.com and made my first account "rosekhaos"[ this is my second account]. I remeber how I was having such a bad time back then.....in september when I stoped goin to Cat Chat on emily strange,[ohh the good times]. Well back in september was the worst time in my life since Monique's death in a car accident some years ago, in september I started school, back in september I quited ROSE[not sure about that], back in september my parents died, it all happend in a car accident.[I don't feel like giving any details] I'm currently 13 years old, and I'm in seventh year, I go to a school called Baldor. Recently I've been having alot of family probles....I'll slowly post them all. "This is my start, my ending will come."[x]
Shionruk · Sat Jun 17, 2006 @ 09:06pm · 0 Comments |
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