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If I'd never gone out with him, what would my life be like?
I just realized something a few days ago, it hit me hard... Me and Lil Mikey have a friend who we call 'Big Mike'... And I just remembered something:
Big Mike's been in love with me since last year [when I was in 9th grade and him in 10], and last year I was gonna ask him out [well, at the time I didn't know he liked me back]... But I only didn't ask him out because his sister, Steph, told me he had a girlfriend. And I believed her [even though shortly after I found out it wasn't true]... But I remember, that before that time, it was only shortly before I met my first boyfriend Kamil, and soon after Steph told me Big Mike had a girlfriend, I met Kamil...
I just realized the other day, that if Steph never told me he had a girlfriend, we would've gone out, and I never would've ended up with Kamil. My life would be completely different, atleast emotional and relationship wise.
So now I'm like, whoa....
Now I'm wondering if I would be so emotional and dramatic about things... Now I wonder if I would've ever met Pier-Luc or John, what would've happened... Because if I had known for a fact Mike didn't have a girlfriend, and he knew I liked him, more than likely, I we would've been together.
But sometimes I do wonder if Kamil was better off for me, because Mike's second to last girlfriend, Joelle, he dumped pretty harsh... He just completely ignored her, and it broke her heart, and he left her to go to prom with some other girl. Then after she found out they were officially over, she became very hurt and emotional and felt used and suicidal, like how I felt when Kamil broke up with me... And when she told him how hurt she was and felt like killing herself, he told her he could care less if she killed herself. Big Mike never treated me wrong at all though, in any way, and even admitted he felt bad about what he did to Joelle.
I even talked to Mike about it and asked him, if it was me, if he would have done the same thing. He said he wouldn't have because our situation would've been different and because I wasn't Joelle.
So yeah, now I wonder what my life would be like now...
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