you know their are many kinds of pain in this world some make you stronger while others just break everything down to each their own on opinions of what each type is. when you lose some one really close or dear to you some times you feel like you lose a part of you or it may go as far as making you feel like you have lost everything but let me tell you just one thing as long as you have someone who will stand by you no matter what the cost you can know everything will be alright. sometimes it just isnt enough i will say this though nothing is for ever no matter what you may seem the only way something can last forever or for a long period of time is when you want it to or you don't let it go i am not saying to just forget it just to not let it rule your life i mean sure it will come back every once in a while but it is usually for the best i mean if we were to forget everything bad how could we be considered human its the pain that we endure that helps us to realize what is truly important in life and it is only after we achieve that realization that we can move on and build from it i will explain one pain that never truly goes away for me and that would be my grandpas death some may think that he is just a grandfather but to me he was much more he was like my dad because i never had one he taught me everything a dad would teach he taught me wrong from right and taught me how to be a man and a good person i owe him everything yet i never got to tell him i loved him before he passed the last thing i told him is i would hate him forever and i feel guilty all the time because of that but then i know he truly felt how much i loved him and i think he would be proud of what i have become and would not want me being down on myself but that is exactly what i meant about pain i feel the pain of never saying goodbye to him and i feel like he deserved better but yes i know i cant change the past i just know i can work towards a better future and that's what i am doing now. and one last thing i know most of you who would actually go out of ur way to read what i have wrote don't care the slightest bit about my pain but maybe if you pay attention and take to heart what i have said you may realize what is truly important in the end and work towards it well i guess that's all for now well peace out and live life to its fullest.
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