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Lately, I've been kind of slipping into a depressive state, I look at all my friends, and I notice that they get pisse doff at me quite easily. I feel weird around some of them, too. Also i've been developing feelings for someone on gaia, and I know that it won't lead to anything good. I mean what am I supposed to do? Make out with a monitor? Well, the pains of my lack of real-life-realtions has slowly been slivering and darkening my outlook on life, don't worry , I'm not suicidal, But sometimes you can't help but wish, right?
I don't know what the hell I would do if I didn't have gaia, I've met so many great people who've helped me so much, and I'll do my best to defend them in their time of peril, and Don't expect them to do the same for me. I wish I could be more happy with my life and happier with my appearance, but real life jackasses just won't allow me too. They always just talk down onn me and make me feel worse than I already do. But anyway. That's all that's on my mind. Not really, but all I can think about for now.
Nobody reads this, so why not just post it here?
If anyone does happen to read this, please comment.

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..Holy s**t I wrote alot. XD

Okay, so, yeah.
Last night was one of th ehardest ever, I was talking to Chelsea on webcam, when she broke down and began crying. I couldn't stand it, I mean I was heartbroken and couldn't stand it.
And It all happened because Cameron lied to her.
He said He didn't want to hurt her, when all he did was crush her heart. Crushed her dreams. Slung her into an infinite depression. He said he was "Changing for the worse," and "They jumped into the relationship too fast." When he was the one who was talking about sex two weeks after they started going out.
I know this is none of my business, but when you mess with one of my friends, and one of my CLOSE friends, then it becomes my business.

Couple of questions for Cameron:
Why didn't you just tell her the ******** truth? If you tol dher the truth instead of LYING to her, she wouldn't be as heartbroken as she is. But no. Why didn't you just tell her you were developing feelings for Teddi? That would have made things a whole hell of a lot easier. And a week after you broke up with her. Nothing against Teddi, she is a great person, but WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL THE GOD DAMN TRUTH?!
And, for that, I say ******** you.
We were friends, until you did that to her. It's not my fault you ******** up.

Sorry. I was kinda pissed then. D:

And, thus marks the end of my devilish, hate-filled ranting.

WARNING: EMO D:

Bloody tears
Broken Heart
Every Sound I hear
Tears me apart
No more laughter
Only screams
Locked away
Spirit broken
Alone and empty
Darkness Eternal
Lost in a memory
Of you and me
The last memory of you..
Of you leaving me
What I did
I do not know
Whay am I not good enough?
Why can't I have you?
You were my life
In a flash you were gone
Cowering in a corner
Cold and Bleeding
One last thought
Rushes through my head
The light is fading
My heartbeat with it
Hope you can hear me
Because these are my last words
Dedicated to you
My last gaping breath
"Wish you were here.."

XDDD

No, it has no relation to me..I just got bored.

What if:
[1] I committed suicide:
[2] I said I liked you:
[3] I kissed you:
[4] I lived next door to you:
[5] I started smoking:
[6] I stole something:
[7] I was hospitalized:
[8] I ran away from home:
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my:
[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:

Other:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you devirginize me(O.o;; )?
[13] Would you marry me?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are we close?
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?