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Well. I feel like such a loser for it, but I told the guy I like that I liked him. I said to tell me if he likes me back or not through email. He got the note on Weds. and now it's Friday. I just hope that he doesn't have access to the computer or something like that because if he just didn't care....yeah. I'm starting to draw again, so avi art will start to come out again. Maybe I can finally get everyone's order's finished. That's basically it, but yeah I'm just really nervous as to what he thinks about me now that he knows I like him.
 zefni · Fri Dec 23, 2005 @ 11:38pm · 0 Comments |
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Hello everyone! [cynical laughter goes here]
OK not really. Thing is, I've had a lot of s**t going on. *points to entry with August 28th journal entry* I love the guy so much now. I found out though, that he's not going to be in my class anymore after winter break. This is tearing me apart for lots of twisted reasons that I have yet to understand why. So yeah. I'm really happy when I see him, but when I'm done with class I feel really sad and angry. I have about 5 more days with him (I go to that class every other day) and then I won't see him anymore. To add to that, I've had a lot of friendship s**t going on. Not working out too well. I need to take a break from avi art. This is because all my grades are dropping and there's no way in hell I'm taking over any classes. So I'm taking a break from avi art because I need to get my grades up, try to fix this problem with my friends and try not to think about the guy I like so much (but I already know it's impossible). I'm really sorry it's short notice and what not. I have not been interested in things I usually am, like gaia and drawing. I've only been writing (or attempting to write) my feelings, nothing for a book I am writing. Poetry is the most productive thing I've donne for a while. I will try to get back onto working on avi art when things start to get better.
[+~zefni~+]
zefni · Sun Dec 11, 2005 @ 01:27am · 0 Comments |
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I've been really tired and slightly depressed for the past few days. Please read this.
AUGUST 28, 2005
I still can't believe it, but yet I know it's true. The only guy I've liked that has gone to the same school as me already has a girlfriend. ********, I just can't believe I was so stupid the first time I saw him and her walking down the hall together and thought they were just friends. No. I find them as I'm walking back to class embracing each other. It took a minute for the thought to sink in, and when it did my stomach seemed to drop out of me. My heart seemed to turn to ice, like it completely stopped beating. I could hardly breathe. The chances were slim that we could be together, since he was a sophomore, but I still had hope. Now that hope has been shattered like a dried rose does when one is not careful with it. But something is telling me that it's not him, it's not the same guy I love. It's saying that there's still a chance.
I just can't understand why I feel like this. Most likely he would already have a girlfriend, but I was stupid and made the assumption he was still single. Maybe I truly am meant to be alone like some are condemned to be.
zefni · Wed Oct 05, 2005 @ 02:17am · 3 Comments |
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Alright I have about 2 people as friends on gaia that are my friends in real life. We are called the fluffy woodland creatures of doom. this is our banner.
mrgreen I'm badger.
UPDATE:.:. biggrin EC 10 2005 5:03PM
haha none of our avis look like that anymore.
zefni · Mon Sep 05, 2005 @ 08:06pm · 1 Comments |
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uhm...ok....this is my journal.....and by 'my' I mean Zefni.....soooo....yea I have a manga that I plan to get published....uh...soon......idk when, but soon.....ok I really don't know what to put in this thing....but if you want to read a journal about me personal life, go to live journal and search for seizonsha_aero.....whee.....so now I must go.....I love random PMs...so send them to me.
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zefni · Fri Jul 29, 2005 @ 11:51pm · 0 Comments |
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