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i just whipped up this poem out of the blue. it's kinda bad but i'm posting it anyway if you see any spelling/english mistakes feel free to tell me! oh it's also really long stare

What is this feeling?

What is this strange thing I feel?
It’s inside of me tugging at my heart
I feel it when he is around
This feeling is sad but happy at the same time
Whenever he is not around my heart aches
It aches for him
What oh what is this feeling?
I wish I knew
I think about this new emotion
I realize something
Its love
I love him
But does he love me?
Or does he just see the friendship we always had
I cannot say he doesn’t give any clues

I try to ignore love but it comes back
Stronger
Stronger
I cannot take it!
He doesn’t have feelings for me!
But why does my heart still ache for him?
My mind is confused but my heart seems set

He will leave soon to another school
Should I tell him?
Or keep this love bottled inside me?

As I lay down to sleep
I think of when we first met
I was alone
So was he
We came together and became friends
All we ever did was talk
We talked about experiences
About life
I liked him as a friend back then
Now
It’s all different

God, please help me!
What do I do?
Follow my heart or follow my mind!
It’s silent
I go in a peaceful sleep
The dreams are only about him

I wake the next morning
It’s time for school
To see him
In school we only glance at each other
But at recess we talk like we haven’t talked in years
The bell rings and my heart aches
We smile at each other and go with our class
Some girls make fun of me but I don’t care
All I can think about is of him

My heart says yes but my mind says no
How can we love if we are ripped in half so?
I sigh as school begins again
They need to teach us something useful I think
But what that is I cannot say.

My heart aches when I am away from him
What is this feeling that hurts me so?
The feeling is love.