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Movies I need to see:
-Amelie
-Waking Ned Divine
-Being John Malkovich
-Back to the Future I
-Back to the Future II
-Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
-Star Wars Episodes 4-6
-Thumb Wars/Bat Thumb
-Plup Fiction
-Bowling for Columbine
-Supersize Me
-The Pianist
-Schindler's List
If you have any more to add or strongly recommend me to not waste my time on a film listed, I'll openly consider your journal comment.
 Carltoast · Fri Apr 01, 2005 @ 06:46am · 0 Comments |
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So I was talking to my friend on msn today and he was recalling events of a recent soccer game he had, this reminded me of how much I utterly loathe the sport. He asked me why and at first I had no answer. I have hated soccer ever since I care to remember, and for no rational reason at all? After a while I finally figured out why, and because I have no other reason for this journal, I'll share it with you.
My family did a lot of moving around when I was young, I went to four different schools before I finally settled into one in fourth grade. Because of all this moving around I never really belonged to a sport or club, and seeming as many of the girls in my fourth grade class started soccer when they were quite young, I was hesitant to join. I was afraid that everyone would make fun of me because I didn't know how to play. As elementary school went past, this seemed to affect my life more than I thought it would. I couldn't have friends over because they had soccer. I couldn't talk about what happened at soccer the next day with my friends. I couldn't go to soccer parties, but above all, I didn't know anyone from other schools because I wasn't on a team of any sort. This, in my eyes, was the epitome of cool.
I tried to join the school team, but was too afraid of being ridiculed for not knowing how to play, plus I didn't want the ball to hit my face. Desperate for the same social perks they took for granted, I joined swimming. I met people from other schools and was happy, but none of my school buddies knew them, so it just wasn't the same.
In grade 6, a girl moved into my street who played soccer and we became friends. Another friend had a birthday party in the school gym to which we were both invited to, and to my great fear and dismay, we played soccer. Needless to say, I was mortally afraid of the ball, and was probably hit in the face. I sat out the rest of the time. The next day my neighbour's younger brother was making fun of me for crying when we played soccer. This brought up an interesting question, why would her brother know about something like this without him being there? I was betrayed by one of my best friends over a petty soccer match.
The same year in gym we had to mark ourselves for effort in a failed attempt to encourage us to shed ourselves of our insecurities. Popularity among the fifteen girls in our grade was established long before grade 6, mainly based on soccer friends. One group which I obviously was not part of. After someone rated their effort and left to get changed, the soccer friends would always say that the person deserved a higher mark and the teacher would change it. I was left with noone to give me a higher mark, and ended up with a B in gym, the only ugly, rancid B I received on my report card each term that year, and I hated it with every ounce of passion an 11 year old could muster.
This brings up another thing, I was just as much of an athlete as the soccer girls, if not more of one, because I swam. But such capabilities as swimming didn't show through in elementary P.E. The teacher thought they knew who played sports and who didn't so usually they gave them a higher mark based on that fact. I was left with no exemption because people didn't see me as an athlete unless I played soccer.
That, in unnecessary and rather tedious detail, is a look into my angst ridden childhood and why I have come to loathe soccer. If anyone actually read this, please drop a comment.
Carltoast · Sun Jan 30, 2005 @ 05:37am · 3 Comments |
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Friendships are often made or lost because of MSN's impact on communication.
For example, you meet someone who shares your interest in... lets say... guitar. You might have a few awkward conversations about their favourite song or what their guitar teacher's like until finally, you ask the big question. Thats right, their email. If you have nothing else in common with that person or if they generally can't keep a conversation up for that long, your conversations with then will diminish completely after "how r u".
On MSN, you're not forced to keep asking questions or share some experience because the awkward silence between topics just isn't there.
If you find someone in real life even the slightest bit annoying, you're pretty much garunteed that they're going to be 10 times more irritating on MSN. If you're talking to them in the hallway at school at least you can pretend to be somewhere, but sometimes it's awkward on MSN because you have to think on an excuse to leave, and with all these new MSN PLUS programs that can tell if someones really offline or not you may potentially hurt their feelings.
Which brings me to my next point, people dont watch what they say on MSN as much as they do face-to-face because they have the comfort of two panes of glass and a few miles distance from getting into any real harm. Also, things you may say jokingly on real life may sound dead serious on the internet, which can also get you into trouble.
So before you add someone, think of how well things would go between you two if you were locked in an empty room together for an hour. Could you keep the conversation going? Would they annoy you to the brink of insanity? Or would you acually get along?
hypocritically yours,
-Carltoast
Carltoast · Fri Oct 01, 2004 @ 12:14am · 2 Comments |
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