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It's been 2 years since I've returned from Iraq. I've learned I'm stir crazy, i have this feeling I want to go back to the sandbox. I know others feel this way, i know some who do not. I've gone to 3 friends funerals because they were just bored. Drug over dose, Liver failure, and one was just a strait up suicde... The military kinda left the veterans to the winds when it came to Home transitioning. I like to think i'm doing okay, even after my divorce a year ago, I picked myself back up and started standing on my two feet again.

When I first came back, it was hard letting go of my weapon. I walked around places to places with my Gun, slept with my Gun, everything! Little by little I stopped carrying my gun, and went down to my knife. An finally I unarmed myself. But even living like this... especially living like this, I can't stand it. I even went on a few border missions to get my fix of warfare. Maybe I turned into a warmogul? But its not like I promote war... I suppose im just forever ready for it.