can u possibly feel like u must dos omething to keep some one close? i feel that way so many times. maby thats a reason for putting my feelings away so others can use them. Some use them aginst me, it hurts and i hide it. But never once have i seen some one tell me that they wants best for me (friends any way) maby ts because i'm so good at acting like i'm selfish so it helps the other person that they beleve thats who i really am.
or, have i lied to my self into beleve what i want. I'm so undecicive about who and what i am, i question my self if i'm doing the right thing. not only for my self but the other person. I'm such a confused person. i dont know what to do most of the time. crazy isnt it? i think so. i dont even know what to say right now other then i'm all... @_@ like a crazy person. locked away. i ask as i have done many times before i want help, but i'll never tell any of you.
Lilly B Deadly 08 Community Member |
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