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i feel lost and i feel i dont know some people close to me anymore.im trying to figure out who i am in life.how many times you heard that?everyone around me wants the best but one person i love the most i feel doesnt think they can trust me or tell me anything i tell them everything and i guess thats one fothe many millions of problems i have worng with me and my life. i barely can control my emotions or mind or my heart. i feel sometimes i am jsut a puppet and i dont knwo who as the strings and what they have planned with me. cry i know that i try so hard to make everything work out and nothing helps i feel like im just in dark pit and dont or remember when all of this started but i know i cant figture out what t do next and whatever i think or do i feel is worng or hurts so i ignore and put off the fact i have no clue who i am or what im doing or what i need to do. i feel sick and confused. i do have one thing thats wonderful and thats my boyfriend heart jacob heart hes by my side and i often act worn gand i dont appreicate the many things he does for us. i try to take everyday as it coems and be thankful i have him for now. i know one day ill look bakc and hopfully ill fix my messy life and look back and see i had it pretty good and i had jacob to make it twice as good. mrgreen
ps. if you think you may be able to help me sort things out message me ill love you forever if you take the time to help me. 4laugh