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I really don't know what to do anymore, Steven confuses me so much. I love him and i thought he did too. But so suddenly when everything looks like he does infact love me, it changes in a matter of a week during my sickness. It's like i wasn't there for a week and he forgets all about me, sure he calls but now i notice him eyeing other girls and and he DARES talk about them in front of me. He is always acting all perverted around me, then acts loving and goes and does this. Really is he just using me? He hasn't called me all weekend, what happened everything looked right, but then....now really what happened was it me or was it him?
It hurts so much to love someone, and they never return your feelings. I wish he knew how hurt i was, to feel my pain. I'm too shy to speak up, if only i wasn't, then he'd know how much pain i'm in, how confused i am, how depressed i am. cry