Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

 
 

View User's Journal

Subscribe to this Journal
Rayea Setheus's Journal
Where I tell my poetry, stories, past, darkest feelings, and anything else I wish.
Hell Freakin' YESH!!!
I got my items back! HAPPY DAY!!! *does happy dance and chant/sings* I got my iiiitems back... I got my iiitems back! ^^ YAY!!!!

Once again I can have one badass, scary looking avatar!!! ^^

God Dammit!!!
My ******** account was hacked! Stupid ******** son of a b***h!!! WHy the hell would anyone be that goddamned stupid?! And I swear to god that if I find out who it was, I'll kill a mother ********....

Grr... freaking Grr...!
Dammit... wtf is wrong with me?! My head hurts and is spinning... and for christ's sake! I can't understand anything anymore.... I'm torn... my whole freaking mindset is thrown into chaos.... and damn David to hell for all his stupid bullsh*t!!!! *sighs* If you're curious, and you know me on MySpace... go read my blog there....

Goodbye and don't talk to me....
I am pissed... ooohhhh, I am so very pissed. That freaking baka has the nerve?! How dare some human scum treat me like I'm worthless and completely unimportant! How dare he do that to my daughter! He will pay. He will pay by losing all that is precious to him... starting with his other two children who are far more important to him and also the little bit of a life he claimed to have.
Anyone living in such a lie and such a negative little state of mind and place as he is not at all living. And the demon shall see what more damage she can do to it.... He's given me such a karmic debt that I believe I shall be safe.... If not? What's the worse that could happen other than my child being taken or my own life being taken?
I've already lost what little of my heart was left. I'm trying to find it again, but I cannot seem to get it quite right, the catching of it.... Maybe it was stolen and I haven't found that person yet.... Oh well. What use for a human heart does a demon truly have?

Please let me wake up and escape....
Wake me once I return to reality, away from this terrible dream....

I can't escape reality... no matter how hard I try...

My heart is breaking apart... and all I want to do is cry.... But I won't let myself....

User Image

.... (Venting)
Please god someone wake me up from this nightmare....
Please god someone wake me up from this nightmare....
Please someone wake me up!

....I'm not waking up. And I don't want to believe that this is reality.... I'm trying to stay numb. I haven't cried in months, and I don't want the reason I cry this time to be some stupid boy! I feel betrayed, hurt.... I feel like my heart is ripping itself apart.... It's anguish. I don't know what to do or how to feel.... I want to scream, but I cannot. I want to cry, but I don't. I feel like I should just claw out of my own skin, sit and cry in the corner until I bleed to death.... Why does it hurt so much to be betrayed? And hell! If I didn't have my daughter, it wouldn't hurt so much! But it does! It does....
Anika is such a beautiful baby girl. She doesn't deserve such a life of pain. She deserves to be happy. She didn't even do anything. She didn't do anything to anyone but smile and be the sweetest, happiest, most lovable little 4 month old girl. It's not fair of that jerk to do this to her! I don't care what pain is laid upon me... but I will not have someone cause suffering for my daughter's life when there doesn't have to be any. And he's doing it....

Please god someone wake me up from this nightmare....
Please god someone wake me up from this nightmare....
...I just want to wake up....

The Lonely Little Gaian (part 1)
This is the story of the lonely little Gaian.

She is average and plain- most of the year staying much the same. Hair kind of reddish, clothes in mostly blue- it's not her fault there's not much she can do. sweatdrop One day she woke and found no one was here. All of her friends seemed to have disappeared. She searched and searched, but they'd all gone away. No one wanted to come back or even role play. The Gaian was very lonely and sad. sad She understood most couldn't come back, so she didn't get mad. Very quickly, she got an idea.
She went around the different towns to search for new friends. But sadly no one accepted her requests in the end. Defeated and heartbroken, she went back home. The empty spaces and open places made her feel more alone. cry Poor little Gaian, whatever shall you do?
The lonely little Gaian got up just then. "Somehow I'll figure out how to make new friends!" idea She rushed to go and check her gold. She'd buy a brand new dress to replace the ones that were old. Then she'd check her items and find something nice, something shiny or even pretty to add a little spice. She'd throw a party- no! A huge ball! Inviting lots of other Gaians- heck, she'd invite them all! If this didn't make her more friends, she didn't know what she'd do. But at least she hadn't given up and was trying something new.
Away she went to all of the stores to get her new dress. She tried on several until she found the one she liked best. A party is something that takes time to plan, but she knew she'd get it done quickly- just as fast as she can. She hurried and hurried as the days went by to get everything done. She hoped with this plan new friends would be won. She sent out the invitations, set up the decor, went to put on her new dress and wait by the door.

~~Who will show up to the Gaian's party and become her new friend? We don't know yet... but we'll soon find out. ^^~~

Poems


A Poem a Friend wrote for me....
The Stone Left Unturned

Every rose has it's thorn
As the old song goes

Ever cloud, a silver lining
As everyone knows

I hope to never leave
Any stone unturned

To have no regrets
Every lesson learned

There's love, there's hate
Brimming under our skin

I know them both well
The battle never ends

I rage this war for you
Of my heart's deepest red

And for my fairest blue
To which I've been led

Never forget, never
That I'm with you

Never lose, never
What keeps you true

Never leave a stone unturned


(He lives in Kentucky)

Rayea Setheus
Community Member
Rayea Setheus
« Prev Set | Next Set »
Archive | Home

  • Entries to 26
  • Entries to 20
  • Entries to 16
  • Entries to 6
  • Entries to 1



  •  
     
    Manage Your Items
    Other Stuff
    Get GCash
    Offers
    Get Items
    More Items
    Where Everyone Hangs Out
    Other Community Areas
    Virtual Spaces
    Fun Stuff
    Gaia's Games
    Mini-Games
    Play with GCash
    Play with Platinum