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Life: Don't read, just a rant. |
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Well I guess you could say that from the outside looking in, my life is just peachy. I have what looks like, a nice house, good family, friends, and food on the table. However, it is not that way at all. On the inside of my family, I am presured to get better grades than my brother with a 4.5 GPA who is good at EVERYTHING in life. Sure my parents say that they don't care if I get better grades, but they are wanting me to. When ever he comes home with 100's in every class, not easy classes either, I hear them say, "Why can't [my.name] be more like this." They also are forcing me into tons of clubs and activities so that I will be able to get in college. They have no idea that High School now-a-days is much more complicated than it was when they were kids.
On top of this, my old dream to become a soccer player is now coming strong than ever, but I have lots most of my talent. I went to soccer practice the other day for my select team, because I now am going to be on their team. I am SOO out of shape. I tried to stay with the rest of them, but I am so slow and fat. Speaking of fat, I am also disgusting looking. My legs are huge, my stomach is bulging and my face is hideious.
And now it's getting even worse. For the past month, I have been eating..non-stop and it is disgusting, I can't believe it. I feel like crap overall. My body my mind, everything is going crazy. I try sleeping at night, but it just doesn't work, like I sleep for 2 hours..max.
Gawd and then there is school, with crushes and grades and soccer and band. First off, I like this guy, who serisouly doesn't know my name, well he does, we've talked, but he's not my best friend. I'm just wanting someone..ya' know? And now with Biology, I have no idea how I'm going to be able to past this test we have on wednesday. Then soccer and band kinda run together and it's all the pressure of having to be good at everything, to insure that you earn the right reputation, however, I fail at doing that.
So basically this is a rant about what I feel like..I hope you didn't read that, because if you did, it would just make me seem 'stupid' or 'emo'. So whatever..
 x.XNameleszX.x · Mon Jan 29, 2007 @ 10:28pm · 2 Comments |
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