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So what you should be listening to is... not enough by our lady peace. anyways let’s just see what you have all missed, I was dumped by the light of my life I guess I always told you all about how great she was and how much I loved her but I don't think I ever really told you why. So I guess I should explain this.

I met her in my grade 9 year what a year I spent the entire year trying to get her to fall for me but I didn't really care about how much time it took I was devoted and I knew I just wanted to have her. but as the year came to a close she came around and we were finally together. after the summer we to my surprise were still together we had just barely started holding hands by that time because she wasn't comfortable with it but I didn't care at all because she made me so happy by just being by my side. Time went on and by year two we still hadn't slept together which was actually not a problem I respected her to much to ask and trusted her enough to tell me when the time was right so I didn't even think about it. year three roles around and I thought we were going to be together forever I just wanted so bad to be with her till the end but after homecoming I suppose you call it and after the school year ended I went up to the school to see her, she left me I didn't see it coming but I suppose I should have known.

sense then I have had a few darker days but I have also grown up a lot I am a vegetarian now, If she hadn't of left me I don't think I would have had that opportunity. I have also lost twenty pounds I'm not sure as it is healthy but I feel better. Don't get me wrong I’m not trying to bash her I really still love her but the thought of her has recently crawled back into my mind and it just rip’s its way into my every thought and it feels horrible. I don't know how to deal with it. I recently started really getting back into my music I have written my first song in a long time and it’s so much better than I could have imagined. I recently played it for a room full of people and I couldn't help but break down crying in the middle I mean I continued to play but the tears stabbed like needles they just... I was so embarrassed. The song is about how I make someone “my everything” and then they leave and I fall so hard which is exactly what happened, I regret. Anyways enough of my ranting. I guess I sort of came on tonight wanting to ask a question, Have you ever fallen for someone like that and been let down so hard it almost destroys you? You should just leave a comment. Anyway remember life is a tea party and we are just the cookies.