-Sigh- That is all I can say to explain it really. :Sweat:
I am becoming an emo, an angry one no doubt, but yeah! It is annoying it seems like lately all I see is the negatives, and one is really bothering me! It is Luke, last I though, he was my boy, but now I am not so sure, question , he use to call me every night, talk to me for endless amounts of time it seemed. Now, he calls me once in the morning for less than 5 minutes to wake me up, after that we normally play "WoW" together, now it is a "hi, how are you this morning" and that is it. Gone, ninja , Poof! I try talking to him but it is hard to get a reply anymore, stressed I feel like I should give up and say what ever. He told me I would never be replaced, but it is not a replacement that bothers me, I wonder if I am ever there anymore... I know he probably won't ever read this, redface , and a part of me is glad, yet I feel kinda, in my heart it really hurts, it seems like when ever I tell him things, he shrugs it off. It is to the point I don't even get a "I heart you" anymore gonk
The situation makes me wonder about the future and if it is some way the pattern is punishing me. I wonder... sweatdrop Will I be an old woman, alone and forgotten sitting in a nursing home with no children or grandchildren? Will I do anything that will make people remember me? It is enough to make me start tearing, I guess I am just ranting about it, but it kinda feels better knowing that I say this, where some one might care to read it, and possibly remember it.
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