Well my life has been taking very sharp turns and its quite confusing. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel as if I'm spinning uncontrolably. Its not fair. Schuyler broke up with Kadi the last week of school and ever sense then he's been talking like we were together. He pushed me only to pull me back to where we started. He talks of being together and the like. I keep thinking about when he did to me, as if the thought of that pain would scare me back into submission. But all I do is love him more. And to make it worse, he's leaving at the end of this month. He's moving back up to Nebraska for family reasons. He turns 18 on July 31st so he will eventually have the option to move back here. I'm scared shitless that he's going to find someone else and not want to move back. It's like I'm loosing him again, only this time I wont be able to see him everyday, I'll NEVER see him. On another topic, Gabii one of my best friends is dating Bobby, another one of my best friends. I know Gabii from tennis, we've been friends ever sense. I know Bobby from down the street. I've known him sense I was like 5, but we became closer when his younger brother, Brad and my younger sister Rachael started dating. So in any case I'm quite confused because Gabii and Bobby have only just met and now they're dating? How strange right? Well on top of all of this Bobby has been getting into trouble with the law. He's already been to YCC and got out on a count of his broken toes, and then my mother just informed me that cops cars are at his house, so I dont know what to think anymore. From Bobby getting arrested to having to talk Danny out of commiting suicide, my life has been one turn after another. Hopefully someday I'll find the right person and have joy in my life being with them. -Danii
 xXx-Nuala-xXx · Wed Jun 17, 2009 @ 02:38pm · 0 Comments |
