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Why do dreams end at the good part?
Why do i go into a slight depression when i observe specific moments?
I attempt to sound prophetic but it ends in disaster for me, my logic fails, my emotions run rampant I laugh hysterically and all the while i try not to cry.
How lucky people are, how vein some may be, how stupid they all seem, how lost they will be.
Some people talk about love, and the lack of it in their life, their losses, their gains, we take things for granted, some do not see this, they ask for more, MORE until they have had their fill, like the relationship of two who are in it for the entirely different reason. From their amusing love, to their unique beliefs; or ... as it should be said, their beliefs that they believe to be unique; unique until logic replaces the emotional aspect of religion, and even then the very limited amount of logic they used is overcome with emotion.
A run on sentence from a babbling fool, I like that, but at least I am not:
Love sick
Love obsessed
Religious
lacking religion

I have my beliefs even though i dislike them myself, i want to say that i know the truth, but i dont, no one does, those who say other wise are trying to sell you something, i enjoy others misfortune, i hate myself, i love the hate, i am fueled by the rage, even the negative attention is attention none the less...

and this doesnt even describe the more personal thoughts involving porn and other.. subjects,
these thoughts raced within my head, and are still racing to this day as i watch idiotic commercials i can feel my brain melt away, im losing my memory, i pray for insanity, id like for someone to save me, i know that its just bullshit but i want it none the less...

~From the inner workings of Me