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When I opened my eyes,
All I could see,
Was a little girl,
And she looked back at me.


I saw the pain in her big blue eyes.
I could hear the screams of her Past and cries.


And I knew who she was.
I'd met her before.
I'd been through what she had.
But she'd knew more.


She'd been more recent,
And I've seen her in my head.
I remember her torture.
I remember what she'd said.


She knows more than I do,
And she can still see.
I know that little girl.
That used to be me.

There you stand
Holding my pain
Here I stand
Partially insane


The gesture you make
supports the falling tears
And you stab the blade
Conjuring all your fears


It didn't have to be like this
Suicide isn't the answer
I know life seems like life seems like you need to be dead
but it isn't always the cure


So stop before your heart
and it won't be the end
and we might be together
You won't feel condemned


So stop the ******** blade!
I'm begging to my knees!
what more could you need?!
do I have to say please?!


Because if 'I love you' is all it takes
you know I'll put my life at stake

Just so you'll stop the ******** blade.

This gun is pointed at my head.
I'm sure as hell I'm gonna be dead.


I don't know who you are
but you obviously hate me
so it's put to my heart.


And you draw the knife, from it's case
it shines from the light
the horrible blade.


And it takes place of the gun
I don't know why I'm the one.


Knife at heart
trigger starts
and it's almost my end.


Gun at head
tears being shed
put the knife down.


I beg to you
there's nothing I can do.


As the knife shoves in
and my face turns white
I gasp for more air
filled with freight.


Hold me closer
so I can feel your even beat.
I'm getting colder.
I need your heat.


The trigger jabs
and the bullet lunges
towards my aching head.


And I can't think of anything right now except,
'I am probably dead.'

I don't have perfect skin
I may have perfect eyes,
but even that waterproof eyeliner,
cannot hide my cries.



The jet black color
I've grown to know so well,
is washed off quickly,
as my eyes begin to swell.



And my irises turn blue,
and I begin to sob.
The pain in my throat
turns into a throb.



I bite the black off my nails,
them beginning to bleed,
and I begin to bawl,
hating what I've seen.



The knife can't help,
It'd be going too far.
But I'm scared of my future,
cause this is only the start.