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Some of you have of noticed I've been a bit weird. I apologize. My life has just been a little hectic. I'm going to state everything going through my head. Not because I want you all to know, but because I need to vent. And I'm making this public just so you know Im having issues and I apologize. And I swear alot. Sorry

So my mom is getting into her dating thing again. Which is REALLY ******** bugging me. She seems to have completely forgotten about my dad. I haven't of course which is part of it. This is what I get for not getting over it nine months ago. But ********, my dad, the only family I ******** had is gone. Its ******** destroying me. I do my very best to never cry. Nothing ever gets to me so much, but I'm in ******** tears. I seem to be the only one in my family that even cares. No one else does. Then there is my school, every ******** teacher is out to get me, I swear. Ms. Karr that ******** b***h has to bash on me every ******** chance she gets. Failing me even though I do ******** great on every test. Tests are the biggest part of the grade and I get ******** A's on all of them, yet Im failing. What the ******** is that about, oh wait I know, cause she ******** hates me. Then of course my mom feels the need to yell at me for EVERYTHING I ever do. I can't ever see anyone and I'm missing people. My friends are breaking off from me. I barely have anyone left. I'm hated by people for s**t that I didnt do or s**t that I took the blame for so my friend wouldn't get in trouble. My asthma is worse than ever. I'm constantly in pain. Scars are acting up for who knows the ******** why so that just adds to it. Nothing I do seems to matter or is ******** right. I'm a constant screw up, I piss everyone off. I dont even know what to ******** do anymore. I just want to take my select group of people and leave, just ******** leave. To ******** nowhere, a non exsistant place where its no one else. So Im not ******** judged or hated or anything. Just me and the people I care about. My mom practically gave me a "Hey here is something to remind you of your dad every ******** day, lol!" For christmas so everytime I see it he's on my mind. School is almost starting up again and I can go back to that piece of s**t life. I'm so ******** done with all of this stupid ******** s**t. Dont comment, dont ask me about it. Dont even bother pretending to care. I'll only talk to one person about this because I know they care. So dont ******** bother.