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I haev had a rough coupel of days as it is because fo worrying about my GF becuase she is under a lot of stress at work
but you know what, today I remembered why I avoid most RPGs on gaia. I was literally given an attitude because someone else missed part of my post.... and basically did soemthign that would not be doable had they bothered to keep track of such thing. And it seems that rather than edit their one post... they would rather haev an attitude and expect me to edit three seperate posts... two of which happened before theres.
It is this lack of consideration or flow that is the reason I stopped RPing on gaia last year, and in all honesty it is again making me wonder if it is even worth starting again to begin with. If peopel can nto be bothered to even keep track of where characters are standing then how prety tell do they expect to actually do any kind of dramatic scene or combat situation.
Small things I could understand, but ignoring where a character is standign when it is clearly mentioned in two seperate posts.... and then giving someone an attitude because they made a mistake about where people were and basically walked straight through a character standing there.... I mean come on.... does it take so much to keep track of where people are standing or let them decide what their characters are doing. Small things like dialogue responses are one thing.... but literally telling someone where their character walked to, and ingoring what was alreayd posted is another matter entirley
 Dampylle · Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 12:27am · 6 Comments |
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Well first to answer one question.... no I am not dyslexic, though I did suffer a severe wrist injury in the past that healed inproperly. As a result my left hand moves slower than my right and my wrists are slightly crooked. this results in my hands beign misplaced on the keybaord as well as both space and letter inversions as I type. I appologise in advance for any difficulty reading my entires
now to the business of tonights entry
I had a rather rough day due to my shattered tooth acting up, I also miss my singificant other and have not heard from her today. But I digress.... due to my tooth and more mundanr problems such as cable going out, my computere acting up, etc I was rather edgey. Something occured that offended me and I overacted a bit, and as I did not explain why I was really upset people took it as I was just irked.... unfortunatley things escelated from there. In the end there was a logn and drawn out argument and I am not longer really comfortable in the thread that is my pride and joy here on gaia...my 300+ page Shadow Hearts thread. I have put so much work into that thread but now it just feels so hostile. I appologised and removed my own posts that mayhave offended people... btu no one else has been willign to do so, whuich simply adds to the feeling of hostility in the thread.
I am afraid the only way I will be comfortable in my own thread, with my own greatest accomplishemtn on gaia, may be for me to delete it and start over if things continue as they are.
I know it is just the internet, but this thread was one of my refuges over the last 5 months when things were going badly... and it just does not feel the same right now.
Though some may not beleive it I am rather insecure most fo the time, and so not hearing from my singificant other for a bit... plus all these other occurences... has got me feelign rather down.
Dampylle · Wed Jul 27, 2005 @ 08:53am · 3 Comments |
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What does a guy do when he cares about people, but knows he is hurting them? What can a guy do when it seems no matter what he does soemoen he cares about is goign to end up hurt? How can such a man be happy when the happiness and well beign of those he cares for are paramount in his concerns?
These are some of the questiosn I fdind myself faced with right now, and it si tearign me up that I don't know the asnwers. I want to make sure no one is hurt and everyoen is happy..... and for the first time in who knows how long I don't think I will be able to do that..... because this tiem ti seems ti all rests souly on my shoulders to decide.... and I am afraid that no matter what I do peopel will end up hurt.
I thought I could protect people from things by distancing myself in certain ways..... but ti seems all I really did was manage to hurt them rather than protect them
I feel like I am just some selfish and horrable person who has put my own selfish desires before the needs and feeligns of the peopel I care about..... and anyone who knows me will understand how much that is tearing me apart right now.
I wish I coudl just dissapear, btu that won't work either as it will jsut hurt and upset people further.
in seems no matter what I do I am screwed, so what am I supposed to do?
Dampylle · Fri May 20, 2005 @ 01:32am · 6 Comments |
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Inspired by my special soemoen I am considering ditchign my procastination and either gettign back into Tai Chi or possably giving yoga a try...maybe both if I can find the time and resources needed, that beign good manuals on the two. I am more interested in getting back into Tai Chi to be honest but yoga has a certain appeal to it as well......and let me assure you ti is true what they say, when you are in love you are more willing to work on those little things and try to better yourself...and I think ti is because you want the best for the person you love.
But my hopless romantic side aside for a moment, I got soem fairly good news last night...I thought my christmas would be almost nonexistent with a total gift of maybe $70 from all my relatives....till I was informed last night by my mother that her and my dad are also sendign a $100 check...more than doublign what I have for Christmas. But no amount fo money can get me the one thing I really want for Christmas....but that shouldn't be a problem next year.
I am tryign to keep busy as I am waiting for a few packages and letters an das such I tent to get anxiosu and paranoid....and I have been more paranoid than is normal latley, not suree why though, so keeping busy is a good thing. Helps me keep from thinking to much or goign straight to the worst case scenario.
Dampylle · Thu Dec 09, 2004 @ 02:49pm · 0 Comments |
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I don't know if anyone actually reads this thing, but I have been rather busy as of late...RAvenloft game seems to have fallen apart, helpign a close friend deal with soem personal problems, workign through the intiial comunication barriers for a new apartment...and spendign as much time as I possably can with my beloved...god I miss her when she isn't around.
And to add to all fo that I developed a bit of a head cold that has migrated to my chest, it is startign to clear u pbui the last few days have been rather rough. But Meg has been makign sure I get enough rest and such, I really do love her.
Well that is about it, not much else goign on right now, other than me buying a box of yu-ghi-oh that is.
Dampylle · Wed Dec 08, 2004 @ 03:19pm · 0 Comments |
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well here it is the first post
I spent today settign up a new RPG on gaia for the HEllsing guild, I also happily made a donation to my darling's quest for fairy wings.
I am a little dissapointed with how my last halloween item sold...only 3k while the first sold for 8k. But I am still happy because it gave me the gold to help my darlign Meg on her quest.
Dampylle · Thu Nov 04, 2004 @ 09:44pm · 0 Comments |
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