For the better half of about 18 months now, I thought writing was something I was good at. Well jesus fecking christ was I wrong and at this point getting booted off gaia or having my account suspended for indecent language is pretty much the least of my toubles. I've just been treated to a taste of how a real rper does it.
I'm gonna lay it down in plain English. I live in England. A totally different timezone from what most gaia users are using but I don't let that get to me. I post whenever I can and make the weekends and holidays really count which always seemed to be enough but at about last christmas, my old computer died out for a couple of months and when I finally got back online verything went all pear-shaped. After I started catching up and replacing old rps that had died it didn't feel the same way doing it. To be honest rping sort of started to feel obligatory, as opposed to something I did for fun and I started to want to finish as oppose to the 'I don't have to finish just yet' attitude I had before. It started to feel more like work and a lot less like fun but my entire confidence complex has been crushed by this single sodding little rp that was so fun when I started it. I don't know if it is said rp or rl problems or just that it's only no I'm starting to try out a wider range of rps but it's not even enjoyable to try and keep up. Aforementioned rp seems to be fileld with users that are not bound by the usual abilities of the human nerve response system nor the physical temporal restraints that are cast upon those within a normal corporal existence. It's like there are nine posts every second or something and the rp isn't even that big. I feel like I've got people judging me and breathing down my neck and I just need to vent y'know. I mean jesus christ it's just nuts that I'm even considering staying on gaia, considering how s**t I feel but they say a problem shared is a problem halved so lets hope this helps a tiny bit.
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