Well tonight was promenade. I, like the good friend I am, went and took pictures. Everyone looked so beautiful, it was like they were completely different people. But it felt so wrong to be standing there in normal clothes while Mo, Stephi, Colleen, Lucy, Emily, and Theresa walked across the gym. I should have been in a dress with Ray right next to them for two reasons:
One, I should be a senior. Only Coventry's stupid excuses made me stay back a grade.
Two, those are the people I've known and been friends with since my freshman year. Actually they're the first group of friends I've ever had. Most would say this is not something to cry about, so why am I? Because it's symbolic; next year I won't have them anymore. I'll be walking across the gym all by myself. Just like old times.
I felt really bad for leaving without saying goodbye and waiting for Sasha, but it was too depressing. I only hope they had fun and didn't notice my attitude. I wouldn't want to ruin their fun for them. I just wish Paul wasn't such an a*****e. I would have been there too if not for him.
In just two short weeks, I'll be watching them walk across a completely different floor for completely different reasons; they'll be graduating. And I'll still be trapped in high school without them. I guess that's why I'm so sad right now; soon I'll be losing the only friends I have and to be completely honest, it scares me shitless. I've gotten so used to having friends I don't want it to go away. But this too shall pass.
That's all for now. I owe myself one very big emotional breakdown.
Ja ne.
 Momoiro no Bara · Sat May 05, 2007 @ 12:29am · 0 Comments |
