Going through darkness once more in these sad, sad feelings. Finding your self intwined at the brink of dispair. Those dark thoughts surrounding your inner light to create yet another way of thinking and mind. I feel sad as I sit here now. My world still yet damaged by the pain from the past. The littlest thing brings it back, one small word or jesture can make it trigger. There is that feeling that your heart turns black as the night sky and then suddenly it drops. You become dark and sadened with the power of darkness not wanting the light. I find my self in this situation at times.
To be loved or not to be that is one question everyone asks. For all those things, if I am not then I fall apart into a place that is yet complicated and nearly distroyed. This is because most of my time here I have not had much of physical contact with those around me and causes me to be distant. But deep inside beats still the heart of a caring loving person.
I surround my self in darkness to hide at times, to be alone. Why? Because I feel like no one cares and unless they them selves reach inside my own darkness with their bright light of love then and only then will that feeling subside and the darkness disappear. Then my world filled with light comes into being once more and I am yet again within that happiness.
This happens often, more then people know but I do not show it. It is yet another aspect of my self I choose to hide. But now those who read this know...that is how it can be for me. All because of the lonelyness.
The Book Of The Raven:
Aspect:05
Area: 12 Deepness
Feelings involved: Sadness, deep thoughts, lonelyness, hopelessness
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