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Scared? Ok... to tell the truth I had dreams last night where I walked around and scared people with my face. I feel as though I have. I'm not a very good looking person at all. To tell the truth, I'm damned hideous. I know this, so to prove a point to all of you -I am not just being modest, I'm being honest- I am pretty scary. >__<;; I fear that I've scared away a lot of people. Some ask me "can I see a picture of you?" Then disappear forever. I agree I need some sort of facial make over. Some major constructive facial surgery. I find that saying "Your ugly, I'm fat but at least I can diet" doesn't quite work with me. XD When I was younger I used to try to suffocate myself with my pillow... well that didn't work. My sister thought I was playing and took the pillow from me. Dammit. When I go back up to Canada, I'm thinking of joining the army. Least put my protective urges to good use XD And not to pathetically cling myself to others. Last thing people need is a hideous slug attaching themselves to them. shudders I feel lied to. People think that by saying "you look cute" is making me feel better. It's not. It's only angering me. I sat down with a friend last night and she had made me realize things. I'm not ugly, I'm not good looking, I am fat though. Oh Fu, you know you can do better. I'm sorry I shattered your Dream guy perspective. There's a good reason I don't go showing my face all over the place, dearest. I hope you can forgive me... or at least talk to me. >___< I feel really very sick... I'm the shorter one with dog ears. shudders

Posted by: Twelve Wounds Mon Apr 23, 2007 @ 04:27am

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Arrison
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Mon Apr 23, 2007 @ 05:13am

Opinionated Arri comment in five... four... three... two... one...

First things first, your not ugly. I couldn't actually tell you whether I think you were "Hot" or "normal" or something in between, as I really cannot seem to do that with friends, but at the very least I can reconfirm that the proverbial "ugly stick* has not been bashing around your head.

If people dissappear purely based off how you look, then that is their loss, and they are fools for doing so.

I don't know whether Fu "ran away" or not, whether you created "shock" or not, but I remember you saying something along the lines of "One day I will be old and wrinkled, and my looks will be gone, and there will just be my personality and mind". Well, if you did not say it, then I am now. I doubt Futil has gone, considering the intense bond that seems to be between you. Do you really think a little thing like looks would break it?

But if it has, well, I really cannot put this tactfully, so, I shall simply say it. If a little thing like looks is going to break it, then it isn't worth it.

To conclude, you are not ugly, looks mean little in the long run, and I apologise for the "gruffness" of this comment.

Sanctioned_Sanity
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Mon Apr 23, 2007 @ 06:31am

D: I agree with Arrison. It's not looks that really matter, it's the soul, the person's heart, and all that romantic s**t xD; So, if looks really matter so much to one person, then it isn't worth it.

Futil
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Tue Apr 24, 2007 @ 04:07am

Mai ai, never think that. Looks are so, so very trivial. I believe you are gorgeous, no matter what you may think.

I'm so sorry that you got the wrong idea when I dissappeared for two days. I was kind of going through another rough patch. My mother and father told me they were getting a divorce so I was kind of going through a hard time.

I didn't want to worry you, mai koibito. Aishiteru.

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