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What can I say about this day? For me, it was a bad day. What makes it worse is that not only was it all my fault, but everyone who knows it was a bad day, knows it was my fault.

To these people I want to express my deepest apologies. Some of you may have said "It's okay, don't worry about it." others may not have, but I know I screwed up and I want to make it right. It's not okay and it should never be considered okay, because then I won't have learned anything. I have no excuses or explanations and I won't try to make any.

In fact I have more things to add to the list. Not only did I display horrible organizational and social skills, or rather the lack there of, but I dissapointed the people who were counting on me. On top of all of this instead of immediately wanting to and looking for a solution, I allowed myself to concentrate on only the problem. Then as if that wasn't bad enough, I openly displayed the desire to give up, run away, and quit.

However, I would like to point out that I did not give up, I did not run away, nor did I quit...if I had completely given up to the degree that I had desired to, I would certainly not be here writing this. I completely own up to my mistakes and I know that this is only the first step, the next would be to correct the situation. At this point in time I can't undo what has been done, but I can most certainly take the necessary steps to prevent this from ever happening again.

I will not make a promise I can't keep and I can't guarantee this won't happen again, but I will say that I will try and that I will be as mindful as I am capable to not let this scenario repeat itself. Also, I would like to again apologize and say I am truly sorry to those people I have hurt and disappointed.

I know I made a lot of very stupid mistakes, I will do my best to fix them, and I am sorry.

-Ashley