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Yes, yes.
To all of mah devoted readers, and Ma...
I've been living a LIE.
I don't like Michael.
I just...wanted to like someone...
And...he was there after Ben and I split...and I clung to him.
I've mistaken certain /feelings/ with others...and...now I know.
I know that I don't like him.
At least in the way I /used/ to.
I'm now brave enough to say 'I was wrong to try and recuperate by falsely liking someone.'
So.
I'm apologizing.
Especially to Michael...for causing him grief...and...pretending to like him.
Not like he noticed...but...I'm sorry.
So yah.
That's off my chest.
And now.
I am going to sulk about my revelation.
x.x
It did feel good to act like a loon, and fawn over someone in the /special/ way girls fawn over their crushes.
It felt /really/ good.
But in a WRONG way.
So now...I'm just going to wait...wait until God sends me someone.
Someone RIGHT for me.