i don't understand why this always happens. i didn't try to start anything. and he wasn't talking to me. i finally asked if he actually wanted to talk to me or not, and he said he had to go now. and he signed off without a goodbye or an i love you... so i went to bed and tried to sleep. but of course it didn't work. i guess what really upset me was the fact that it seemed he didn't care if i was able to come over or not. wes said i might be able to and told my mom (after adam himself told me). but when i told him what wes said he just said wes is stupid. which is pretty much what made me think he was just giving up. i can't stand this. six months is no fair at all. i have no life other than him. i really don't know what i am going to do with myself. i cry every time i start to think about the fact that i can't see him for three months straight. and then when he gets online and expects me to do all the talking, that just tears me apart. it's funny how much i want him to read this. but i don't think he cares. =/
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