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The feeling of losing everything/Seeing true love
I guess I was wrong...I can't be in love and it just won't happen with anyone. I don't know what to think anymore. All my experiences just make me dead inside. I have no reason to live. I have nothing to look forward to. All I ever do is help people because I care, I don't get anything in return and probably never will. But I do know...if I can't have him then I don't want anyone else, he is my last. I am tired of searching and wanting it so much. As long as he is happy then it will be okay and I will continue to live as I always have forever with nothing in life. I don't want to love if it isn't with him. Besides...sooner or later it will kill me from the strain of being alone and if it does I won't have to suffer anymore. Oh well...I guess it just wasn't meant to be. crying
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OMFG THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE BUT HE DECIDED TO CHOOSE ME OVER THE OTHER GUY EVEN THOUGH THAT HE KNEW HIM LONGER HE SAID HE FELT MORE WITH ME THEN HE DID WITH HIM!!! surprised I will try my very best to please him in all that I can. biggrin I LOVE HIM ETERNALLY THROUGH LIFE AND BEYOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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