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things have been a wee bit shaky lately with me and my wife. we some times dont see eye to eye. I know because of her bi-polar she likes to have order to everyting and rules must be followed religously. some times I forget and thats when we fight.
I dont want to go into details because its personal. I'm only geting my feeling out so I can better understand how I feel and possibly how she feels as well. I can understand her being upset with me but I feel she got too upset and crossed over into complet hatred. unforanetly thats how she is... I find it hard to adapt to it some times. its like night and day or a wight on a string swingging back and forth one side way too happy and the other side way to sad. in the middle is stabillity. medicen helps the pendulem not to swing to wide. thats the best way I can discribe it. comunication is hard for her as well. we dont sit down enough and talk about how we feel or whats going on with eachother. some times I feel like she shuts me out and wont talk about it as if she dosn't want to be happy again or give me a chance to make things right. alot of bad things have happend to her long befor I met her and they seem to be haunting her and that in and of itself is putting a strain on what we have built together. as far as my relationship with my son. thats the one thing me and her both got going for us. we both love him and he loves both of us. sure there are ups and downs but such is life and so I end there. till I wright again.

Jamin