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Feels like the weight of the world
Like God in heaven gave me a turn
Don't cling to me
I swear I can't fix you
Still in the dark
Can you fix me?

~Weight of the World, by Evanescence.

Now… Evanescence is a little too dark and gloomy for me most of the time, but there are times I can listen to their band. Those times are when I:

(1) Am bored, because I love and envy Amy Lee’s voice.
(2) Can relate to what she sings.

I was kinda falling under category number two last week for a little bit, just because I felt like I was going completely insane with everything I had to do… and it felt like I was going against something basic that I knew wasn’t right. I’m better now, but sometimes I get those days where I feel like I’m doing something simply because others want me to, and I know I need to get them done, but that I have other things I feel need handling first which are crushing me to bits right now.

But then again… that’s why I’m home again, isn’t it? And as soon as it’s all through with, I’ll go back for a month or two, and then we’ll all be happy. Or at least I hope so. I’m tired of being pissed and sad about crap that shouldn’t normally make me feel this way.

But I’m lucky that I at least have a way to solve my problems that doesn’t include drugs or alcohol… XD. So whatever. It’ll all come out alright. I just hope it does soon.

Before something stupid happens that rocks my world a little too hard…