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I can't believe you caved. What ever happened to the plans we talked about? The ones where we would all be happy? Dont you remember the night he came in screaming, and do you remember the way he stomped out of the house?

The locked doors, the cold shoulders? The spoken words, and the silent ones? How could you ignore all of that? But you did. You were supposed to be strong for us, but instead you put on your fake smile, laid on your fake charm, and broke my heart.

I hate you. I hate your gullibility, and your vulnerability, and your weakness. I hate you because you gave in to him. I'm forced to bite my tongue and roll my eyes at the artificial words dripping with false sincerity, and cringe at the way you lap those words up like a kitten does a bowl of cream.

Don't you see how much he hurts us? The bruises under the surface, the fatal injuries that can't be seen? Everything he does is like a blow to the head, a knife slitting our throats. Those things he does go unlooked, even ignored at times, and it's as if you're rubbing salt into our wounds. You're killing us.

Are you happy now Mommy?