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Well now.. I just got a nice little phone call from Damien's mother. She wanted to know if Damien was with me. The last time I saw him, He was waiting at the front of the school for his mother to come pick him up. I told her that was the last time I saw him. I offered him a ride home multiple times... But... I knew as soon as I got int he car, that I should have insisted upon him coming with me. Why didn' I? He wouldn't still be out there if it weren't for me.. He might have started to walk home but he seemed really pissed when I left... It makes me want to cry to think how he could feel. . . But.. Why didn't I call to him.. I wanted to so badly. I should've.. but I didn't... KNowing how his mother treats him(especially when i'm not around) she'll say it's his fault.. I'm so worried.. i hope that he doesn't disappear(aka move away) like the other man I loved once... I relaly do care for Damien more than anyone else. I don't want anythign bad to happen to him.... ... ... oh my GOD... *cries loudly* (Don't worry I'm just thinking too much) If I don't hear from him this afternoon I'll be so worried. I might not even sleep, let alone cry myself to sleep.... *sniffle* Please be okay...

I had a dream recently.. It was one of those meaningful dreams(all my meaningful dreams involve Angels.. or winged persons). I was one of those high angels, one of those stereotypical happy ones that love bouncing around. But I started gettign accused of stuff and finally there was a final straw. The others got angry and torn my wings to shreds, tossing me from heaven. I fell with a painful clunk. Pain... It hurt me deep inside... After a while.. that pain started to feel unbearacle.Then it changed to a lonliness. I had just realized that I was alone. God abandoned me along with his other useless creations.. the humans... They all lifelessly tread upon my already pain-ridded body. I tried to move my torn wings and it only caused more pain. I had never felt pain before this whole event. Even the smallest twenge was too unbearable to stand. A few kind souls stop by and attempt to clense my wounds.. As soon as they think it's patched up, they leave me to my lonesome. Then someone showed up and tore my wounds back open. I sat there in my bloody tears when a demon-child showed up. He reached out his hand to me and helped me up. As soon and he helped my wounds, he embraced me. Durign the embrace, I realized he had a pair of black bird-like wings but... they were... chained. I broke the embrace to ask him abotu it. As soon as his eyes connected with mine, I awoke. Ever since I've been drawing that boy. I have a sketch that I'll ink in a bit.. maybe you can see it...

EDIT: OKay I got a hold of Damien at about 8:30 I was freaking out... I told him how worried I was and how my mind warped it inot it being my fault. He told me all that happened which is a load of s**t. His mom says she was out there.. and so were we. >.< According to Damien, If she weren't on her meds, it would have been worse.. the only really bad thing so far is that I can't goto the movies this weekend.... crying BUt I'mma goto the Gun SHow and buy me somethign pointy and get Eric something nice ^.^ I love giving people stuffs 3nodding

EDIT #2: BTW thankies to all my friends for caring about me. Especially RC and Erran. You guys helped alot.