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I dislike wearing anything other than black
Feels waaaaay unnatural...

Well......I might cut my hair soon *hugs*
people don't like it and I can't figure out anything to do with it....or maybe I am just to ugly to have this hair. I love my hair though cause its so soft and it makes me feel so safe cause I can hide my eyes behind it crying
I guess I will think about it more later....

Oh whoopie! An adult finally figured out that I don't let anything out! She won't do anything about it though....I know she won't.....no one will, but thats okay because I can control myself........or can I?

How long will it be before I release, crash and die?
I believe the answer will come this summer....depending on how things go I guess....

If my mom yells I will let her and just ignore her......if my father gets pissed, he can beat the hell out of me all he wants and I will just take it.....I mean, whats alittle abuse here and there when you have been ******** yourself up for almost a year now?

Ugh....I really don't wanna die......but I don't wanna deal with my life in the future...

I have vowed not to fall for anyone in CA.....I have afew crushes, but I am not gunna do anything....I will just sit there and daydream about the future which I hope will happen.....all I can do is hope. Working my way there won't do s**t......atleast not now anyways.....

I AM GETTING ALOT WORSE AND NO ONE IS DOING ANYTHING!

not even me....is it because you don't wanna do anything or because......you know you can't do anything.... emo

Well you know....trying will atleast make me feel loved