Getting Over Loss
A part of me never felt really completly whole until I met the one I do love. But I know he doesn't love me that way and probley never did..even though it hurts me to say that. When I was with him it felt like I was whole and complete. But then...someone stole that happiness from me and distroyed everything. I guess I almost turned mortal, completly with nearly having to choose between magic and him. I chose him over that because my feelings were greater for him then it was for anything else. I guess no matter how hard I wish or try I can never be with him, even though that the pain of not being as close as I was hurts more then being alive. It hurts everyday to get up and realize that I can't be close to the person I fell in love with. More then anything no one can understand this pain unless they have also felt the same thing. I guess I just have to face that its never going to happen. Even if he was to pick me or drop her or they didn't work out and he came back to me...I don't think it would ever be the same so either way I am stuck because someone stole my feeling from me by saying what they did and it will take a VERY long time to feel it again...if at all. I will always be alone no matter what anyone says, they only say I won't cuz they feel sorry for me but I know the truth and that is I will never feel this feeling again until I am very old and is about to die...but by then it will be to late. I don't want to live anymore. cry emo
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