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It only takes a few words to prove a point. Three could cause someone to want to kill themselves. Those include:

1. I hate you
2. I don't care
3. Leave me alone

There is a longer list, but those are the ones I've heard most, especially said to me. I hate you, is probably the strongest. Holding a hate and directing it towards another is selfish. You are not giving, you are taking from their happiness. I don't care is one that I've heard most of all. Saying that you don't care about something is the same as saying that you don't care about the person. Leaving a problem without trying to fix it could really be suicidal. Leave me alone... Very hurtful. If you continue to push away those worried about you, you are letting a pain grow in their heart. The pain of concern and worry. They will continue to worry until it's too much for them to bear.
But how can words kill a person? Simple. It tears them apart on the inside. Though they're simple phrases, and don't seem to mean anything, they are more powerful than you think. Unlike punches, or any type of physical violence, words puncture holes in your hearts.
Through the eyes of ther person hurt, it makes you feel like you want to rip your heart out and let it bleed. The holes will never be mended, even if you have surgery. Some things are pernament. The throbbing in your heart is pernament, and you might carry with you even after you die.

It's too late for me. I've been shot by those words more than once, and by people I thought I cared for. That cannot be helped though. I have no real friends, if loyalty counts. I have no best friends, since they deny it either way. I hardly have a family though we all live under the same roof. So tell me, what's left for me to embrace? A picture of the perfect person that doesn't seem to have any worries. A picture of the ones I wish I could call "friends." A picture, and memories of those who are no longer there to help.