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Bleeding now I'm

Crying out I'm

Falling down and I'm

Feeling nothing like

Laughing now I'm

Stopping now I'm

Reaching out and I'm

Feeling nothing


Yeah, you have created a rift within me

Now there have been several complications

That have left me feeling nothing

I must say, you were wrong to take it from me

Left me feeling nothing



Crawling now I'm

Beaten down I'm

Tortured now and I'm

Feeling nothing like

Hunting now I'm

Stalking now I'm

Reaching out and I'm

Killing nothing



I can feel you ripping and tearing

Feeding and growing inside of me

I want this, more than you know

I need this, give it back to me
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That song seems kinda perfect right now....

Well! Lets see if I feel like ranting.....Actually......uh......well it's not really a rant but just more of what I have figured out abit about what the hells going up with me.

Well, Valentines day was a normal day for me so like always it was the same s**t just a different day =/

I think I have known this for awhile now but just so I remember, I can't fall in love or have crushes on girls that live here in CA......I don't know why I just don't. *clings to Kaitlyn and Anna*

Also I am an idiot....dur.........

More news I saw that made me really sad so uh.... like always I am not gunna say what it is because I don't wanna make a big deal out of it.

Signing onto Gaia gives me more to Repress everyday, why do I do it when I know its gunna come back and kill me or something?
Because....I just don't give that much of a care about myself and I think alot of people know that by now sweatdrop

I go to the library to sit and think now also read at the same time.
I am having way Morbid thoughts in my head. I wanna shove a grenade down someones throat and throw him into a large group of people.
I wanna yell "SHUT THE ******** UP" to everyone in my classes, but no, I will just repress more. Repression repression repression...... I think I live on that one word, Its keeping me sane for now, But when will it let me go?

God......help me?

Wait....nvm, no thanks... I am sure I can Handle it!

I should write my will before I crack someday cause you never know!

(I want all my stuff to be split and go to the other side of the country to the 2 girls.....PEOPLE I love the most in this world)

Sorry about my attitude now but like I said.....I just saw something that made me sad. crying