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My Adventures In Wonderland
“When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?”
My Broken Heart
Has matt truely abadoned me like I fear he his?
It hurts as if he has....
I feel like I've been used and lied t again like with my last ex....
matt doesn't love me he never did.....
if he did love me he would respondto my pms and stop hurting me like this....
it hurts too much to be an accident hehas tobe doing this on porpuse...
But Why?
He knows I can't live withouthim...does he want me to die?
Whatdid I do to make him want me to die?
Why doesn't he care aboutme enoughto respond to mypms or to even get on fora matter of fact?
If he wants to break up with me why oesn'thejust say soand not put me through all this?
what have I done to make him want me to die?
Why have I uined everything once again?
Why can;'t I ever find a guy that loves me and mea ns it when he says it and respondes to my pms no matter what and at least trys toget to talk to me?
Why am I so unwanted..by anyone?
hat have I done in life taht was worth this?
Is god punishing me for not beliveing in him?
is Matt punsihing me because I'm a horrid gf?
Tel him I'm sory if you talk to him before me..
Is he testing me to see how far he can push me?
And if so why he knows I'd give up my life to be with him?
I'd give up everything for him and he won't even respond to my ******** pms...how cruel this weighs upon myheart...
All I ever did was love him and yet he hurts me like this on like aweekly basis....
I still love him and I always willeven ifit means a lifetime ofpain,sufering, and adversery...he was worth kepping but he aparently didn't feel thesame way about me...
All I ever tried to do is love himand keep him happy..but he ruine me
I always called out his name whenI was afraid and alone....
When we had a firedrill his picture was the only thing I bothered tokeep with my in case there was areal fire..
he doesn't love me like that....he must not have ever loved me at all to treat me like this
Why I keep getting hurt by the people I love is beyond me..but....I can't reallyfunction without him so...
I don't know what I'll do....
It hurts more than words can describe...
He letf me...just like veryone else tends to do and he was my rock now I ahve no foundation of which to stand on....
he was my everything and now I ahve nothiong....
I would beg him to take me back but...he probaly won'tcare either way...
If he hurts e this much and ugnores my pms he must hate me....
He didn't even try to wait till I got on yesterday and wouldn't even tell me why...
he didn't respond to my pms whenI sent them last nght asking what I had done wrong
He doesn't want me to know so he wants me in pain.....
I must conclude that because he's not on long enough to tell me oher wise...he hurts me beyond words but makes me feel like a godess...
what do I do?
Where do i turn when the only person I hd to rely on is now the one casing me toneed allies?
Why does this always happen to me I fall i love and commit myself to someone only to be hurt in the end...
God I still love him with every once of my being....
but he doesn't love me like aht he has proven that the past few days...
he's probably going to complete,yl aabandon me now because of this and once again it'l be my fault but I can't helpacting like this when I 'm this hurt...
I'm sorry everyone...
but he's myworld I lost him and if thats the truth you might tlose me..
hes myeverything and he has seemingly abandoned me now I ahve nothing






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saveds
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commentCommented on: Fri Feb 09, 2007 @ 10:17pm
I LUV OYU AND I NTO TRYING TO ABNDON OYU


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