Well
All I have to say is, I'm sick of being ignored.
Like seriously. Anything I've said or done today had no importance to anyone. No one cared what I said or did today. Not exactly sure why, but it's been like that for a while. It just finally got to me today. Today, I was supposed to teach the clarinet/flute section how to play a new song that we recieved for Pep Band today. NO ONE LISTENED to me and we sounded TERRIBLE. I was blamed for not helping and everyone pointed the finger at me when no one cared to listen to what I had to say. WTF DID I DO?
I'm thankful I had Stoldal to talk to after the game. I kinda vented to him, but still kept it subtle. We ended up talking about the lighting scheme and how many extra hands we needed. But still, for some reason, I can just talk to Stoldal and all my issues go away. I guess he sorta reminds me of someone else that can do the same thing.
But I mean, I'm not one of those kinds of people that demand attention, but seriously, why have I been totally shut out recently? The only person paying any attention to me whatsoever are my friends Christine, Tom, Tyler, Matt, Sam and David. My family even ignores me. I asked my step-dad a question and I didn't even get acknowleged. So, I asked again. I asked him the question about 4 times, even stating his name. And yet, I was ignored.
My aunt is always yelling at me for not talking to the family, or coughing at dinner, or not eating a certain amount at dinner. Who the hell does she think she is? She is NOT my mother, so why should she act like it? Thing is, I don't talk to the family much because guess what, they IGNORE ME. I can't help it if I'm sick and can't stop coughing long enough to swallow something. And what if I'm not hungry? You shouldn't force anyone my age to eat. I know when I'm hungry, and I know how to fix it. I'm not a ******** baby anymore.
I honestly think my aunt is treating me like this because she thinks I'm the 'typical teenager'; a problem child. Ok, the only PROBLEM I have is my grades. I have a weird study habit that I can't focus for more than 45 minutes at a time (aka slight ADD), but my aunt doesn't understand that. And she thinks that I'm on the phone too much recently. Ok, to point out to my readers, I am never found on a phone unless it's with someone I know really well, or someone I care about. The only reason I talk to one particular person on the phone so much is because that is one of our best ways of communication because I can't see them any day I want to. Sure, I'd love to be able to, but I can't, so talking to them on the phone is the only outlet I have. I have never been a phone person. Up till this year, I think I talked to people on the phone a collective of 4-5 hours total. From the time I was allowed to USE a phone to right before I started talking to my friends on it more often. I've never liked the phone, which brings me to the only reason I DO use it, as stated before.
And the fact that she considers me a problem child? WTF? I have never snuck out. I have never swore at my parents. I've never ran away. It's been three years since I've had a mental breakdown in front of someone. I obey my parents. I do my chores. I don't lie to my mother. I tell her things about any potential relationships I may have. I tell her things about any relationship I might have at the time. I'm open to my family. I don't hide anything from them.
How the hell am I a problem child? What is she SMOKING to make her think that?
I'm a good person. I'm loyal, trustworthy, and I don't fight with my parents anymore. (since the divorce)
My question is,
what the hell did I do wrong now? To deserve this treatment?
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