I am a ghost.
I am a ghost. Ghosts don't accomplish things. I just drift about quite aimlessly. People ask me if anything interesting is happening or has happened. I have to shake my head. Nothing interesting ever seems to happen or maybe it does. But I couldn't remember, ghosts have bad memory. What are you listening to? Who is my audience anyways? Ghosts lose things too. I've lost my goggles. I think they've run off with my friend's missing necklace and is having a romantic affair. Do ghosts always think so absent minded and off topic? I'm sure we ghosts have postive sides. We are quite free to do as we please. But we can't think of what to do. I feel I am losing myself. I'm losing ability. I don't even think I draw as I used to. I don't grow, I don't improve. There is no success. I feel lost. I feel missing. Today something feels like... I feel like someone has died, or someone is hurt. Why? There must be something wrong with me. I've grown tired. I feel like my whole course3 is a traffic jam. There are too many cars. Moving slowly... Some even ran out of gas and we leave them behind. But it feels... It feels so strange. A positive yet negative feed back. A drug.. but I've never taken a drug. I think it feels like the mirror cracks for a second, pause, shatters and scatters, briefly. I know this doesn't make much sense. Is it depression? I don't get depressed. I'm just confused, horribly confused. Don't you dare ask me what is confusing me. I'm not even sure. I don't have a clue. What am I doing? What should I be doing? I know I should be accomplishing something creating something, finishing something. If this continues just a week longer things will crash. I don't want to crash.. Have I changed? Wasn't there another version of me? Who am I?
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