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My Adventures In Wonderland
“When you're taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?”
Ugly
Ugly

No one wants me anymore and I can’t blame them I’m the most disquisting creature alive I should have known that I wouldn’t be his focus forever that’s why I never got scared and locked him because I liked being wanted and now he doesn’t want me so I have no reason to live. I knew that I was ugly but everyone lied and told me I wasn’t now I know better now I know that I will never be wanted r needed by anyone so I don’t see a point in living. I can’t even look at myself in the miror without wanting to die because I am so ugly and stupid and worthless. I don’t’ feel like I’m worth anything everything that made me feel remotly pretty is gone now because he’s found someone better to look at just like I feared he would. Every other gil is better looking then me, nicer than me, just all around better than me and I can’t live like this. Why was I born like this? Why was I born looking like a freak? Why is everyone better than me why do I ruin everything? Someone please kill me please…I have nothing going for me iwas stupid to think that anyone coud ever want me. My heroes wopu;d be so ashamed of the way I look I have dissapointed everything I BELIVE IN FOR BEING THIS GODDAMN UGLY! I have lost any feeling I once had about being loved or wanted or pretty now I know that all those feelings were lies and that I a nothing I am a hrrid monster thatwasonly put on earth to be made fun of and mocked and used as a joke fr other people to keep them entertained. I can’t live knowing that I m the ugliest person n the world and nothing will ever make me doubt that I I will never be happy knowing that I am not wanted. It’s too much to handle knowing that I have to bea b***h in order to be able to keep anyguy interested on me and that I have to scare off any other girl away from him because they’re al better than me that’s why I can’t hav friends thatare girls because they are all better and prettier than me and so I grow to hat them for I I hav never been pretty nor will I ever be so why not just end it all now? I’m so ugly I hate myself for being like this. If there is a god I am the joke he played on the world he put e here o be laughed at and tourmented by my insaity and my hideous apparence he put me her for his own sick ammusment that’s the only way I can explain how ugly I am

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saveds
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commentCommented on: Tue Jan 23, 2007 @ 01:32am
i didnt read all of it but i get the poi9nt jessi pls beilive me when i sya i luv and srry i make feel this way


commentCommented on: Tue Jan 23, 2007 @ 04:08am
sorry it doesn't make any since but I copy and pasted it from my real jounrel and noyou don't make mef eel like that all the time.....it's just that soemthing happened that made me kindof erupt in self loathing because of something a certain person said 9and it's not you)



GwenTheFallen
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saveds
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commentCommented on: Tue Jan 23, 2007 @ 10:39pm
madiiepk ?????????


commentCommented on: Wed Jan 24, 2007 @ 12:45am
no it was a guy making it worse......oh well...as long sI loose eight so that yo can stand looking at me when I ge to iowa



GwenTheFallen
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saveds
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commentCommented on: Wed Jan 24, 2007 @ 01:48am
I LIKE YOU THE WAY U ARE SO DONT THINK U NEED TO LOOSE WAEIGHT FOR ME


commentCommented on: Wed Jan 24, 2007 @ 09:58pm
no I nee to lsoe like 60 pounds or soething then you could be happy to have me as your gf



GwenTheFallen
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saveds
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commentCommented on: Wed Jan 24, 2007 @ 11:09pm
i am happy with u as my gf


commentCommented on: Wed Jan 24, 2007 @ 11:12pm
no iwant you tobe proud to ahve me as a gf not ashamed of my freakishness



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