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I am in mourning.
A friend of mine has passed away.....
I dressed my avi in black, and put the grim reaper behind me.....I miss Angie

I have always known Angie, she and my grandmother are - excuse me, were - best friends from when they were 20, so I've known her all of my life

she developed multiple tumors throughout her body, doctors thinking it origionated from lung cancer she got from smoking....

but the tumors were malignant - meaning they spread - throughout her body, making her final days painful.....

if there's one thing I cannot handle very well - if at all - is watching old people suffer

I don't know why, but it's just painful , I guess because seniors have already lived through life's pains, so they shouldn't experience more.....

and the fact that her daughter felt emenze hatred for her mother for no apparent reason....

she ran away when she was 15, came back for a couple of weeks, then went to live with her dad......

she feels like she was left out of a lot of stuff, yet she's the one who chose to leave

she has said multiple times "I'm gonna take back everything that that woman owes me"

I want to yell at her "YOU WERE THE ONE WHO LEFT! YOU OWWE HER YOUR LIFE! SHE GAVE BIRTH TO YOU AND DID NOTHING ELSE BUT RAISE YOU AND YOU LEFT!!!!"

She doesn't know how to manage money.....she borrowed constantly from Angie and never returned and spent it on the stupidest of stuff

one example: She wanted new drapes, so instead of getting samples to see which one would be the best choice, she bought 7 different drapes. Her reaction "I didn't know which one would match the best." Why didn't she just get the samples?

another example: She wanted to see a bull fight to write a screen play, so she went to Spain to see one. Mexico's closer, they have them there too. But no, she needs the most expensive way......When she came back, she said "Oh, I didn't know there was more than once a year!" Dumb b***h, it's the Running of the Bull that's once a year.
And the worst part of this example, she went to Spain shortly after she learned that her mother has a week to a month to live.

I have never met her daughter, but I know I hate her.

Now, her son, I like hikm very much. He's been there since the beggining, taking care of his mom during her last days. So much so that she out-lived the doctor's estimate by 4 months.

Sadly, her daughter's been taking her brother to court, saying "He's been refusing to give her her medication and taking them himself!!!" Again, b***h

she's only after money, she doesn't care about her mother at all

This is why I am mourning: her death, her pain, and that she was only taken care of only one of her children.

I will miss her forever...
Great, now I'm crying for real again crying

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