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Sighhh
A lot has been going... Especially since my birthday, which was on the 17th, by the way... I don't know why I bother writing in here, no one reads it... That ight be a good thing, I feel lik writing some personal stuff... Keeping it all in hurts... Sighhh...
Boyfriends are sooo complicated... They all complain about girlfriends, but they don't know how complicated they are... Or maybe they're too simple for us girls, and we complicate things for ourselves... Yeah, that's more likely...
Sighh...
I can't stop sighing for some reason... But it's funny how it makes me feel a bit better... Just like crying... I thought cryin was a bad thing, and he's the one who told me it's actually a good thing cos it relieves you, but then hegets irritated when i cry... So complicated... Well, i dont know if he gets irritated, but that's what it seems like to me...
Oyaji reckons he jst needs a bit of space... But then, why can't he just say so?! If he had just come to me and said, hey, i need some space, so don't stick to me like glue for a few days, then i would haev done so... Instead of doing this... Psshhht... Complicated desu yo... Sighhhhhhh...
It ruined my birthday too... I spent most of the day in tears, but luckily, I have a best friend who's gentle most of the time, but firm enough to knock some sense into me when necessary... I enjoyed the 5 hours of that day... Probably the worst day of my life so far, but I'm sure there's even worse to come, so... Might as well forget about it... Or not...? I don't know... I'm just confused...
Space, huh... Space... Yosh, if he wants space, he shall have space.. And I guess it's about time for the old Yaléni to return... The quiet, romantic one was cool, but I preferred the lively one razz
Wow, I'm cheering myself up by writing all this... Go me!! ^^ I sound hapier than at the beginning already... Me has such a simple mind... Hehe... Hm, do I want people to read this or not... Sophie probably will, she's the only one who comments in my journal regularly... Hiren might...
Hiren... Such an... No, not an idiot, but, does such silly things... No, doesn't do silly things either... Doesn't do the right thing, that's it. Maybe he wants space too? :S Boys really are a lot mroe complicated than I thought... I always thought I knew boys pretty well, because I have always hung around with them... never really had a close friend who is a girl... All my best friends were boys, most of my childhood friends were boys too... And most of teh girls who were my childhood friends are now ennemies... hehe... I used to be sooo boyish... I've changed since I moved to England... A lot... It's scary... I blame having a boyfriend... It's making me girly...
I mean, for goodness' sake, I'm wearing nail varnish!!!! And I put it on myself, willingly!!! How terrible... There was a time when I never would havegone anywhere near nail varnish, even if my life depended on it... But that's gone now... Me slowly turning into a typical, normal girl... And you know what, I hate it...
I like theidea of being different... I want to be different... And I am too... Or so I think. Most people do say I'm weird... I take it as a compliment...I take a lot of things as a compliment. Call me a bitc and I'll say thank you. Aren't dogs supposed to be man's best friend? So there, it's not really an insult, is it...
Heh, this is enough I think, I managed to get a few things off my mind, that's good... I shall go and erm... Me needs new hobby while I "give him space"... Erm... Learn to knit, that's it. I'll learn to knit. Yosh.
Byebye, people. Well, byebye Sophie, technically, since you're probably the only one who'll read this.
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