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Yay, here it is again, I'm going to just rant, and get ALL of this anger out of me... Then it's just going to rise up and burst out again in a couple of days, but who the ******** cares. I'm ******** pissed, and I want something to remind myself that i'm pissed off. Well... Here's my rant. Yeah, there's a lot of cussing in this... so if your ******** tummys can't take it, then gtfo my journal p***y. (>__> I'm so sorry for talking like that to you...)

Rant
arrow Okay, i've been looking for a ******** job since October, and NOTHING has worked out for me. NOTHING AT ALL. It's like God's doing this to me to get my mom on my a** about it. I'm doing nothing wrong either, it's probably the way i'm dressed when I go to interviews. I don't have nice clothes to wear to those things, all I have are anime shirts, baggy pants, and pants with holes on my a**. NOTHING NICE. If I ask for something nice, they tell me to get a job, but I can't get a job cause I have nothing nice. It's like a ******** circle. But besides that, I can't even talk to my mom. I try talking, then 10 seconds later she's bitching at me cause i'm a failure, and how she just wants to help me. (While she's just sitting on her a** playing poker) That stupid b***h doesn't understand that I've been looking a lot harder than I used to before I had that Mc Donalds job... THAT SHE GOT ME FIRED FROM. scream She thinks that i'm on gaia all day long and I don't do a damn thing. >_> I Have tabs open with; gaia, monster, wal*mart, vons, gamecrazy, and some other places that i'm applying at. She doesn't realize that I do that. HELL! I have monster open RIGHT NOW. I go on MSN to see if anyone sends me mail about work.
twisted ...doolb detniat reh knird neht ,taorht reh tils gnikcuf ot gniog m'I twisted
Kay, then her boyfriend, Joe, tries to be like my ******** dad. "YOU'RE NOT MY FATHER, YOU ******** DOUCHE BAG!" I dont' even care if my real father isn't there for me anymore, I'd rather have someone who was rarely there than some douche treating me like crap. Telling me that i'm pretty much a failure and I broke all my promises, Cause you know, i'm the one hiring myself. rolleyes What else do I have to say about him... Let's see... If he wants me to get a job that badly, He could EASILY get me one, but I have to prove myself first, you guys all know that~ ******** him! I don't want anything from him Dx<<< Not even this ******** computer, but how else will I look for a blasted job and go on gaia... Chyeah, the only reason why he got the computer was cause my mom couldn't afford it for me. I hate how he's trying to push his childhood on me. "I paid for my own college" He was rich growing up, he's never been on a city bus in his entire life. "I found work easily back in the day" Cause he had friends who put in the good word, had nice clothes for interviews. I loathe him so much sometimes, it's not even funny.
Why the ******** do parents have to suck that badly? And here I am wanting to be one someday. >_< GOD. I don't want to be like my mom, I won't be like my mom... but isn't that what everyone says? Then it happens. I don't want to bring people into this world then treat them like s**t... I'm debating if I should even have kids now. Thank you mother. stare

...Okay, i've been typing for about 20 minutes now... I know it's not much for 20 minutes worth, but I was thinking about how to say some things... and I've cooled down a bit...

*Sets the journal to friends only so sister doesn't show it to mother or f**, I mean joe*

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