I just had a fight with my mom, and over the most stupid of things, as usual. Well, atleast it started that way. What started as some frustration over why my photo program wasn't working on my computer turned into a free-for-all that led to the way I dress and the people I hang out with.
She asked me why people think I'm goth. Heh. Goth. Always with the labels. I'd like to point out that I am certainly NOT goth. I'm VERY MUCH not goth. My style wavers- dark with splashes of colour. I wear dark eyeliner because I think it looks nice, makes me look more attractive; I wear gloves because I don't like my hands; I have a tendency to wear pretty outlandish outfits, but that's because I think it's cute and it makes me happy.
She just doesn't get that.
And to make matters worse she drags my friends into it. She thinks that they are the reason I have an attitude. Unfortunately, the only thing she doesn't realize is that I only have an attitude with her and the rest of this family. They don't even TRY to understand me. I try to tell her why I do the things I do, and she walks away. I try to explain to her the way I feel, and she could care less, or worse, she puts me down. I'm exhausted, my heart hurts, and I can't wait for graduation. My friends have nothing to do with this. Well, she focuses on one friend in particular, which is absolutely stupid. My friend's style is dark, as well, but she's into piercings, mohawks and the like. Mom calls me a follower, saying that I'm starting to act like her. How would she know how I act when I'm never around her? I avoid her because of the way she makes me feel. I hate it, but it's true. I love her, but she makes me hurt so much that I just can't stand to be around her. It's better to stay at a distance and protect the link rather than sit there, argue with her over everything, and slowly feel that link melt away.
I just wish it was the way it used to be...
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and forever it will stay.
I love my Shen-chan. <3
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Countdown: 00! Freedom!<3