these past few days have been complete and utter torture. adam and i got in a fight.... just before he left to his grandfather's for three days. he should be home by now. but i do not think they have internet right now. he's really mad... he was being mean.... i have never had him show that side to me before. i'ts so scary.... i was crying all the while we talked. and i begged him not to get off when he wanted to. i should have though.... because that is what he wanted. and now he is just being mean to me. i mean really mean... like just plain jerk. i can't believe it. i don't like this. at all. i want things back. i want to go back in time. i don't want to cry myself to sleep everynight because he doesn't want to talk to me. this is insane. he told me he wouldn't call me.... i would have to call his dad's phone to talk to him if i wanted. but i am too scared to. he won't want to talk to me. he just 'won't know what to say.' i really don't like how this is happening...... i hope he is just that way because he is with his family now.... he should be home today.. i already said that. i don't know what to do. i want to see him so bad. i want to hear his voice soooo bad. i want him to say he loves me but it feels like he will never talk to me again.... i have to call tomorrow.
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