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Hello everyone! This is the first entry of '07. I'm happy to say that things in my life are running much more smoothly now...especially since I know exactly what it is that I want out of my life.

I've done a lot of thinking over this break so far, and I've come to a few very important realizations about myself and about the people around me. Most of these are very private matters, that only concern the people that are directly involved. You should all know who you are... if not... and you're on this site, then go ahead and PM me.

I have lost friends, but I've also made new ones. Having a best friend, sometimes is good, but sometimes is also not wise. I found this out the hard way when a very close friend of mine that I've known for 12 years found someone knew that she grew closer to than she might have ever been with me. I know now that having one person to count on is not the best thing, so now I've decided to be a better friend to the ones that really need me there, in their lives.

I'm reaching out to let people know what is on my mind. I'm trying hard not to hide my emotions anymore, but it's a hard habit to break. I've had this tendency to hide my emotions so that I can be strong, but now, I will show more courage than ever before, because I know what I want out of life, even if some of the things I want are unattainable. I'm going to try my hardest to only let the positive things influence my life from now on, but I know that some bad things will find their way inside. I will cope, and reach out to the others I can count on to help me through.

I want to keep all the people and things that are dear to me, so my only true New Year's Resolution is: Be myself entirely.

To everyone out there, Happy New Year, may your year be joyous and filled with light and happiness instead of darkness and despair.